Really, the way my brain keeps it all in perspective is that I remember that one day, far in the future, our sun will explode and our solar system will die. And nothing that happened on our planet will matter anymore. We'll all be wiped from history and the universe will go on without us. So it really comes down to being the person I want to be and having the effect I desire on the people I care about. The value we have is the value we decide we have because in the grand scheme of things, none of it really matters all that much so we should just make the best of it. For some reason, that takes a lot of the pressure off for me. I find it calming. I've decided who I want to be and I judge my self worth on how I'm doing at achieving that. And while I want my family and my friends, and my boss to also see my value, I can only control that so much. All those different people will judge my efforts and pay me in whatever currency those relationships dictate (i.e. love from my spouse or fuckin' cold hard cash from my boss).
As for everyone else? I let them judge their own worth as humans. Their own friends and families and bosses will judge their values in those regards and reward them accordingly. I value them for their humanity and I think that comes with certain rights (as I said before) and if I had more time or more energy I might do more to help those in need. I certainly recognize that a lot of people haven't had the opportunities or privilege or support that I have had. In different circumstances, we all could end up totally fucked. So I'll give them respect and recognize their value. Now I'm just babbling I think.
Really, the way my brain keeps it all in perspective is that I remember that one day, far in the future, our sun will explode and our solar system will die. And nothing that happened on our planet will matter anymore. We'll all be wiped from history and the universe will go on without us. So it really comes down to being the person I want to be and having the effect I desire on the people I care about. The value we have is the value we decide we have because in the grand scheme of things, none of it really matters all that much so we should just make the best of it. For some reason, that takes a lot of the pressure off for me. I find it calming. I've decided who I want to be and I judge my self worth on how I'm doing at achieving that. And while I want my family and my friends, and my boss to also see my value, I can only control that so much. All those different people will judge my efforts and pay me in whatever currency those relationships dictate (i.e. love from my spouse or fuckin' cold hard cash from my boss).
As for everyone else? I let them judge their own worth as humans. Their own friends and families and bosses will judge their values in those regards and reward them accordingly. I value them for their humanity and I think that comes with certain rights (as I said before) and if I had more time or more energy I might do more to help those in need. I certainly recognize that a lot of people haven't had the opportunities or privilege or support that I have had. In different circumstances, we all could end up totally fucked. So I'll give them respect and recognize their value. Now I'm just babbling I think.
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