15 Years...
It's been that long or not long enough seems like. It's still not easy. May 2nd. I wish she was here. I wish she'd always been here. I miss her A LOT! I can't seem to stop looking at her photos. I can't stop thinking about her. I can't stop tearing randomly.
I had a dream the other night. It's been a while since she'd appear in one. We were at a daffodil garden. My sister and our best friend from high school were helping me pick daffodils. I wanted the perfect one and they were helping me look for one. There were different colored ones. Yellows, whites, purples, striped and some purple irises too. But we couldn't find one. All of them started wilting and shivering up. There wasn't a perfect one at all and so none of the flowers got picked and I was left without a perfect flower. And then I woke up.
I don't get it. Why now?
I had a dream the other night. It's been a while since she'd appear in one. We were at a daffodil garden. My sister and our best friend from high school were helping me pick daffodils. I wanted the perfect one and they were helping me look for one. There were different colored ones. Yellows, whites, purples, striped and some purple irises too. But we couldn't find one. All of them started wilting and shivering up. There wasn't a perfect one at all and so none of the flowers got picked and I was left without a perfect flower. And then I woke up.
I don't get it. Why now?