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you have to let it out right? one way or another my frustration will come out. and i have control over how it comes out to a certain point. i can let it out in controlled amounts at times when i want it to i guess... but then if i dont manage it at all, it just comes out over the dumbest things with people i'm not even angry at in the first place...
i've got a lot going on these days i guess, "it's all happening". my life wont slow down until north carolina. it will be my first chance to exhale. after may comes senior stuff like crazy i'm pretty sure... and during may i have a few performances to worry about along with an AP exam and just... too much in one damn month. it seems so overwhelming at this point that i can't even think a few days ahead or else i get frustrated...
i need this to stop. i'm tired, busy, frustrated and irritable. i'm enjoying most everything i'm doing... just doing it all at the same time makes it more stressful. i can't wait for rest. i take most opportunities to just lie down and do nothing.
this is all one big "feel bad for me" entry... but i dont really care, cause i'm writing this to just write how i'm thinking so maybe i wont have to think it as much. i feel detached from my head and hands. my head is sort of floating and my hands just pick up signals and move. i only get this way when i'm really in my head... i guess i am now... or maybe it just means i'm really tired... it's two... we have moorestown tomorrow... goodnight.
i've got a lot going on these days i guess, "it's all happening". my life wont slow down until north carolina. it will be my first chance to exhale. after may comes senior stuff like crazy i'm pretty sure... and during may i have a few performances to worry about along with an AP exam and just... too much in one damn month. it seems so overwhelming at this point that i can't even think a few days ahead or else i get frustrated...
i need this to stop. i'm tired, busy, frustrated and irritable. i'm enjoying most everything i'm doing... just doing it all at the same time makes it more stressful. i can't wait for rest. i take most opportunities to just lie down and do nothing.
this is all one big "feel bad for me" entry... but i dont really care, cause i'm writing this to just write how i'm thinking so maybe i wont have to think it as much. i feel detached from my head and hands. my head is sort of floating and my hands just pick up signals and move. i only get this way when i'm really in my head... i guess i am now... or maybe it just means i'm really tired... it's two... we have moorestown tomorrow... goodnight.