Denny's and Darkened Destiny..
So lately my life's consisted of nothing but going to Denny's every night. Yup, I'm now pegged as a regular there. It's cool tho, even the other regulars (this large group of ppl there every night) started to talk to me a lil bit, so it's kinda fun.
Which is what I need now. Something, anything to take my mind off of my past. I need to leave the past in the past.
And it started Sunday.
Yea, I was sposed to pick up Risel from the airport, but he pissed me off so much in 15 years, and even his attitude now,... so I just went about the day as if he didn't even exist any longer. Yea, as cold as it is, I left him stranded at the airport. And the worst thing is... I didn't even care.
Which is why I'm worried.
Violent thoughts,... lashing out for no reason almost constantly... finding it harder and harder to control my anger.
After all that's happened this year.. am I turning to a darker form of myself than ever before?
After all I've lost, my future even in my own eyes looks dim. What path am I headed down?
And why can't I seem to stop it?...
Which is what I need now. Something, anything to take my mind off of my past. I need to leave the past in the past.
And it started Sunday.
Yea, I was sposed to pick up Risel from the airport, but he pissed me off so much in 15 years, and even his attitude now,... so I just went about the day as if he didn't even exist any longer. Yea, as cold as it is, I left him stranded at the airport. And the worst thing is... I didn't even care.
Which is why I'm worried.
Violent thoughts,... lashing out for no reason almost constantly... finding it harder and harder to control my anger.
After all that's happened this year.. am I turning to a darker form of myself than ever before?
After all I've lost, my future even in my own eyes looks dim. What path am I headed down?
And why can't I seem to stop it?...