last day of work for 2006
I'm currently here alone in my office/lab room. I was whistling a nameless tune and reading some chicken soup stories that are both inspiring and sad. I've finished all that needs to be done this year. I've been in two jobs. I was almost ready to give up at the slight hardship. I was ready to give everything up. I was thinking then, if I can surpassed this stage in my life, I can surpassed everything. But now that I'm over it, I think not. There are a lot of dreadful things to come, that I don't even want to think about. I just wish I'll be prepared and equipped with the wisdom and maturity of mind.
I am so thankful that God didn't give up on me. I was such a spoiled brat. I have been selfish and immature. In the future I hope I'll be more worthy of my life.
The birth of my youngest niece have brought me to my senses. I'm important, she rely on me. Even her birth mother don't share the bonds that we have. I would like very much to share the rest of her growing up years and teach her and lead her to better ways. Hoping she'll grow up to be a better person than I could ever be.
I am still in searching. Probably for the so called romantic love that i never had. I'm not that in a hurry though. I've finally learn the values of waiting. I can only live and hopefor the best. I can never say what will happen next. Even if my plans failed, I can be assured that God's plan is still at work and it will surely be for the best of me.
I've gotten over me already. I know my worth as a human being but I'm also aware of my limitations. I know I don't have the prettiest face. I'm not the nicest too. But who I am and what I have been given is enough. I'm complete. Looks will still get my attention. I have always been known to be appreciative of beauty. But I'll be looking for something more than just a pretty face. Perhaps someone who'll share a secret look with me that no noe will ever be able to decipher. and he will be the one person who can make me feel secured at last.
I am so thankful that God didn't give up on me. I was such a spoiled brat. I have been selfish and immature. In the future I hope I'll be more worthy of my life.
The birth of my youngest niece have brought me to my senses. I'm important, she rely on me. Even her birth mother don't share the bonds that we have. I would like very much to share the rest of her growing up years and teach her and lead her to better ways. Hoping she'll grow up to be a better person than I could ever be.
I am still in searching. Probably for the so called romantic love that i never had. I'm not that in a hurry though. I've finally learn the values of waiting. I can only live and hopefor the best. I can never say what will happen next. Even if my plans failed, I can be assured that God's plan is still at work and it will surely be for the best of me.
I've gotten over me already. I know my worth as a human being but I'm also aware of my limitations. I know I don't have the prettiest face. I'm not the nicest too. But who I am and what I have been given is enough. I'm complete. Looks will still get my attention. I have always been known to be appreciative of beauty. But I'll be looking for something more than just a pretty face. Perhaps someone who'll share a secret look with me that no noe will ever be able to decipher. and he will be the one person who can make me feel secured at last.