same thing that goes
my life's been easier than what I deserve.
after blaming God for my troubles I really didn't expect that I'd wake up the following day, but hell I did.
and so my struggle continues..
my 3 month old niece is really heaven sent.
that little bundle of wonder and joy keeps my mind off the things that occupies me at night..
and it's really frightening to think of all those days I've wasted staring at my cp, or waiting for the phone ring..
forever waiting for that call.. it's killing me piece by piece.
I really, really sucks at waiting... this is hell for me.
What's so frightening is how little my recollection of the days that have passed are....
I will never be able to get them back, all those days..
all those hours that I have asked for time to go faster..
it really really is dissapointing of me not being able to value and give my life some quality, to think of how many people out there who have been wishing to have more time to live...
I wished I can get back to my old self again.
I promise, I will never let go of my dreams again....
I will live this life to the fullest, but I need help.
As of now, I will not accept mediocrity.. I will be aiming for the best.
after blaming God for my troubles I really didn't expect that I'd wake up the following day, but hell I did.
and so my struggle continues..
my 3 month old niece is really heaven sent.
that little bundle of wonder and joy keeps my mind off the things that occupies me at night..
and it's really frightening to think of all those days I've wasted staring at my cp, or waiting for the phone ring..
forever waiting for that call.. it's killing me piece by piece.
I really, really sucks at waiting... this is hell for me.
What's so frightening is how little my recollection of the days that have passed are....
I will never be able to get them back, all those days..
all those hours that I have asked for time to go faster..
it really really is dissapointing of me not being able to value and give my life some quality, to think of how many people out there who have been wishing to have more time to live...
I wished I can get back to my old self again.
I promise, I will never let go of my dreams again....
I will live this life to the fullest, but I need help.
As of now, I will not accept mediocrity.. I will be aiming for the best.