what's the matter LJ
there was a terrible fight last night in our house. between ate and dad then ate and mom.
It was really terrible. I had wished that I will not wake up today so as not to feel the intense atmosphere at home. it's suffocating. i need to get out. so here i am. in an internet shop. wished I could stay here forever.
back at home, the dreaded "what will happen now?" question will be hanging in the air. For all I know, I don't have a family to go back by now.
It's so bad really. I really don't think it can be fixed.
Unless ate is not ate and mom and dad were not mom and dad.
if i'll be offered a job somewhere far, I will accept it, right here, right now. take me away. i can't stay and see my family falls apart.
I can't even help. what a loser i am.
God really knows how to get to me.
It's not really my career after all. you were aiming for my ultimate destruction. so here I am. take the remaining pieces and be done with it.
I really don't know what i have done wrong this time. Just when I thought I am surviving, you'll hit me so hard, I come crashing down.
I don't get it.
what do you want to do to me anyway?
not that anything that will happen later will matter anyhow...
how could you take away the only thing that keeps me breathing..
to think that i am not a bad person.
how can that feud be resolved?
can i go back to last night and prevent dad from hitting ate?
can i tell mom to stop complaining and ate to stop being bossy?
Whatthehell..
there's nothing to look forward to anyway.
happy mother's day to all mothers
It was really terrible. I had wished that I will not wake up today so as not to feel the intense atmosphere at home. it's suffocating. i need to get out. so here i am. in an internet shop. wished I could stay here forever.
back at home, the dreaded "what will happen now?" question will be hanging in the air. For all I know, I don't have a family to go back by now.
It's so bad really. I really don't think it can be fixed.
Unless ate is not ate and mom and dad were not mom and dad.
if i'll be offered a job somewhere far, I will accept it, right here, right now. take me away. i can't stay and see my family falls apart.
I can't even help. what a loser i am.
God really knows how to get to me.
It's not really my career after all. you were aiming for my ultimate destruction. so here I am. take the remaining pieces and be done with it.
I really don't know what i have done wrong this time. Just when I thought I am surviving, you'll hit me so hard, I come crashing down.
I don't get it.
what do you want to do to me anyway?
not that anything that will happen later will matter anyhow...
how could you take away the only thing that keeps me breathing..
to think that i am not a bad person.
how can that feud be resolved?
can i go back to last night and prevent dad from hitting ate?
can i tell mom to stop complaining and ate to stop being bossy?
Whatthehell..
there's nothing to look forward to anyway.
happy mother's day to all mothers