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so ill start this entry off with this
yea. dont care if taryn reads this. it should make her happy.
i went to marks journal
read it.
saw the picture.
started crying.
because its over. and i guess i never really delt with it because i havnt had to.. not totally.
but now its just time to move on. fully.
we had good times. bad times. like any relationship.
it wasnt love. so it wasnt going to last anyways.
so i just wanted to say. i guess to the public. i hope mark and taryn actually do well together. he deserves it.
and yea i know i said i never wanted to meet taryn, but know. i see she makes him happy.
and i like that. because first and formost. hes my best friend. thro it all. and i want to meet this chick that seems to make him happy.
plus i figure. hey man. hes my best friend. and im friends iwth all my other friends gf/bf's. and this shouldnt b any differnet. but who knows. she probably wants nothing to do with my existance. which is understandble. i dont want anything to do with my existance.
So now that i have that off my chest.
i started Trig today. it sucks.
i cant handle these numbers.
im going crazy.
i need drugs.
maybe i should start taking my crazy pills again. maybe i wont b so moody and phycotic?
which would help me not be such a cunt to everyone for no reason.
Pity Whores on friday.
im so excited
Im making Nick drive down.
because me and two other lovely people will not b in any condition to drive to Newport and back.
=)
im so excited... tomorrow wednesday.. isnt that AMAZING!!!??!?!
yea.
this morning i almost died. because i suck at driving. and i was already almost late for school.
i had the killers on.
listening to On Top.
wonderful song i might add.
so i was not really fully listening to gemma trying to just relax with my morning cigg and the killers.
turned a corner.
almost got SLAMMED by a mini-van. fuck soccer moms
oh well.
i wouldnt have died in that car.
gemma by my side. a cigg in my hand. and the killers playing.
why not. its a nice way to die.
Dance starts soon
hopefully ill make some money on the side and teach a class or 2.
that would be nice.
what i really need is a kiss. a kiss that makes me melt.
... maybe friday...
....maybe...
oh in case the few people who read this wonder. i write crazy stories.
and ive had horrible writters block for a few months now.
but the first thing i wrote.
the first character i wrote about
was based on Phil.
so thank you phil you are my muse
the second one was about gemma...
okay bye
i leave you all.. with nothing =)
yea. dont care if taryn reads this. it should make her happy.
i went to marks journal
read it.
saw the picture.
started crying.
because its over. and i guess i never really delt with it because i havnt had to.. not totally.
but now its just time to move on. fully.
we had good times. bad times. like any relationship.
it wasnt love. so it wasnt going to last anyways.
so i just wanted to say. i guess to the public. i hope mark and taryn actually do well together. he deserves it.
and yea i know i said i never wanted to meet taryn, but know. i see she makes him happy.
and i like that. because first and formost. hes my best friend. thro it all. and i want to meet this chick that seems to make him happy.
plus i figure. hey man. hes my best friend. and im friends iwth all my other friends gf/bf's. and this shouldnt b any differnet. but who knows. she probably wants nothing to do with my existance. which is understandble. i dont want anything to do with my existance.
So now that i have that off my chest.
i started Trig today. it sucks.
i cant handle these numbers.
im going crazy.
i need drugs.
maybe i should start taking my crazy pills again. maybe i wont b so moody and phycotic?
which would help me not be such a cunt to everyone for no reason.
Pity Whores on friday.
im so excited
Im making Nick drive down.
because me and two other lovely people will not b in any condition to drive to Newport and back.
=)
im so excited... tomorrow wednesday.. isnt that AMAZING!!!??!?!
yea.
this morning i almost died. because i suck at driving. and i was already almost late for school.
i had the killers on.
listening to On Top.
wonderful song i might add.
so i was not really fully listening to gemma trying to just relax with my morning cigg and the killers.
turned a corner.
almost got SLAMMED by a mini-van. fuck soccer moms
oh well.
i wouldnt have died in that car.
gemma by my side. a cigg in my hand. and the killers playing.
why not. its a nice way to die.
Dance starts soon
hopefully ill make some money on the side and teach a class or 2.
that would be nice.
what i really need is a kiss. a kiss that makes me melt.
... maybe friday...
....maybe...
oh in case the few people who read this wonder. i write crazy stories.
and ive had horrible writters block for a few months now.
but the first thing i wrote.
the first character i wrote about
was based on Phil.
so thank you phil you are my muse
the second one was about gemma...
okay bye
i leave you all.. with nothing =)