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So i have desided to not try so hard to figure everything out right away..
people dont understand why i care so much about him, but.. well they really dont have to because its my broken heart and my life. i odnt no wat to do really. he says i make him miserable so im working on that. but i feel ill always be "the other woman" from now on. but i can never really say that because i have no right to b/c i can not tell the future, but right now im just not sure what to do. and i dont no how to bring it up b/c i always word it the same and always get the same answer that never helps. so ill just keep going and just let life take its corse.
but i can not say that i do not care for other people, and im not going to let my problems with him get in the way of this. he said once that hes my rebound guy, and i really hope he doesnt think that, b/c he is no rebound guy, i actually care about him. we have a great time together and my friends pretty much like him. but i cant tell you how i really feel because well i suck at writting things down because im horrible with words. but yea.. neways
i feel things are just dying with most of my friends, like i went to Foxboro last night with gemma, and i felt basically out of place. its like.. what to talk about, dave hardly talks to me nemore, all the guys call me for is food or something. and wen i got there i just talked to gemma. but i duno, maybe since i have my licence it will change.
honostly all i want is someone to hold me kiss my forhead and make me laugh,
someone who isnt afraid to be themselves or get embarassed once in awhile.
maybe not a bf, maybe just a close friend. i just want something different then heartbreak.
see most people dont no me. im the girl when shes getting ready to go out, puts on some crappy old dance music, singes and dances around in her underwear.
im the girl who sings in the shower, or when shes alone in her car, she blasts the songs that reminder her of you and sing them at the top of her lungs while inhailing smoke from her butts.
im the girl who hates to have "a song" with a guy b/c of the feeling u get when u hear it after the heartbreak but secretly has her own song for that person.
im the one who loves to hang out with her friends just doing nothing but laughing her ass off all day.
then falling asleep in the arms of someone who cares about her in some way.
but like i said im not looking for a relationship unless asked, im not against it i just dont want to pressure ne1 into it,
im here, the people i care about no it.
all i can say is that im here.. i cant do nething else with it. just understand that okay
people dont understand why i care so much about him, but.. well they really dont have to because its my broken heart and my life. i odnt no wat to do really. he says i make him miserable so im working on that. but i feel ill always be "the other woman" from now on. but i can never really say that because i have no right to b/c i can not tell the future, but right now im just not sure what to do. and i dont no how to bring it up b/c i always word it the same and always get the same answer that never helps. so ill just keep going and just let life take its corse.
but i can not say that i do not care for other people, and im not going to let my problems with him get in the way of this. he said once that hes my rebound guy, and i really hope he doesnt think that, b/c he is no rebound guy, i actually care about him. we have a great time together and my friends pretty much like him. but i cant tell you how i really feel because well i suck at writting things down because im horrible with words. but yea.. neways
i feel things are just dying with most of my friends, like i went to Foxboro last night with gemma, and i felt basically out of place. its like.. what to talk about, dave hardly talks to me nemore, all the guys call me for is food or something. and wen i got there i just talked to gemma. but i duno, maybe since i have my licence it will change.
honostly all i want is someone to hold me kiss my forhead and make me laugh,
someone who isnt afraid to be themselves or get embarassed once in awhile.
maybe not a bf, maybe just a close friend. i just want something different then heartbreak.
see most people dont no me. im the girl when shes getting ready to go out, puts on some crappy old dance music, singes and dances around in her underwear.
im the girl who sings in the shower, or when shes alone in her car, she blasts the songs that reminder her of you and sing them at the top of her lungs while inhailing smoke from her butts.
im the girl who hates to have "a song" with a guy b/c of the feeling u get when u hear it after the heartbreak but secretly has her own song for that person.
im the one who loves to hang out with her friends just doing nothing but laughing her ass off all day.
then falling asleep in the arms of someone who cares about her in some way.
but like i said im not looking for a relationship unless asked, im not against it i just dont want to pressure ne1 into it,
im here, the people i care about no it.
all i can say is that im here.. i cant do nething else with it. just understand that okay