Felling blue...
Nothing really went on today. Slept for most of the day. And yes I said slept! I think my insomnia is getting better, I only went to bed after 4 days of being up. I stoped taking those stupid sleeping pills. I took 4 times the amount and still I could not sleep. Anyways I have been down today - not suprising. I could be having the time of my life and yet I am sad. It's been a long tough battle but like I said I don't want to give up. Even though inside there is not much fight left in me I cannot stop now, now that I am so close. Tomorrow my bf and I are going to go shopping. We have been going shopping everyday this week accept for today cause we slept lol. Today I have had this terrible feeling that something is going to end. I have not put my finger on it but I know something is coming. I hope that I will be strong enough to get though it. Maybe it will come in a dream I do not know. Speaking of dreams for the 4th day in a row todd keeps dreaming of me being pregnate. I alos have been having strange dreams with me having a child. Freaky lol. So anyways we are going to get a test in a few days. I had a few extra from lat time but I lost them lol. I hope my sister did not steal them. If she was pregnate I would kick her ass lol. Anyways I will write back laters. -jess-