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My IRL diary is way better.
because I write about everybody.
Yes there is more guys.
surprisingly. That's definatly a mystery
never to be revealed.
I just got my whirlwind axe on my tauren
woot woot pwnage.
Today the power was out for 3 hours.
It turned off when I was talking to, ahem, him.
He said he doesn't trust me.
I don't know what I did to lose his trust.
He also said he doesn't understand why I talk to him.
Hm. And I've been thinking about a real, honest answer to that.
I REALLY don't want to say I love him
but it's the only thing that makes sense.
it's NOT even a romantic type of love either
it's a Please-don't-ever-stop-being-apart-of-my-life-because-I-care-about-you-a-lot type of love.
I'm not sure if that would really.. be a good thing to say to him.
In all honesty, I think that would scare him.
I know it's a possibilty for him to actually read what i'm saying in this
but I don't think he does.
Just when I thought I had him, I lost him yet again.
He's such a challenge. it seems as if he just loves the attention I give.
He absolutely loves being a pain in the ass to me.
I'm not sure why. What's so appealing about me frustrated and or confused?
Why can't he just trust me? I would never want to hurt him in anyway
(I mean really I just wanna sechs him up :P )
Is it wrong to like.. really wanna do that to someone?
Even though i'm assuming he could care less if I died
i'd still do him, even if he hates me and he was just using me
I would still do it.
Am I the only one who doesn't find that remotely wrong?
I guess you know, in those movies
there's always that 'mean' kid. The guy you think would love no one.
And ever since I was a girl in puberty, i've always been attracted
to being the one girl that the guy would love.
The guy who is mean to everyone, except for me.
I'm not sure what's attractive about that to me
but it is. And I guess he kind of fits that title.
I just want to feel his warm body on mine, doing haha... magical things.
Oh lust, How I hate you.
And yet, it's like love.
Oh god, who am I kidding.
I'm not that desperate.
I'm not that attached
I'm not that vulnerable
as you think my dear.
I'm pretty damn sick.
sick mentally
sick physically
sick emotionally.
Doctor, fix me?
please. I'm feeling like crap.
Fuck stock market projects, just fuck it.
She can rot in hell for making me do all this work.
It was such a chore copying Brennan's work, I tell you.
I thank "God" for people out there
who let me copy them.
I normally don't copy people, unless i'm extremely lazy
in which in this class
I am.
economics, do the economy a favor and rot in hell.
It's times like today
where the power is out
your room is lit up by candles
and you're listening to The Cure
that make you realize
how lonely you are.
..and pathetic.
goodness
I need to get laid.
because I write about everybody.
Yes there is more guys.
surprisingly. That's definatly a mystery
never to be revealed.
I just got my whirlwind axe on my tauren
woot woot pwnage.
Today the power was out for 3 hours.
It turned off when I was talking to, ahem, him.
He said he doesn't trust me.
I don't know what I did to lose his trust.
He also said he doesn't understand why I talk to him.
Hm. And I've been thinking about a real, honest answer to that.
I REALLY don't want to say I love him
but it's the only thing that makes sense.
it's NOT even a romantic type of love either
it's a Please-don't-ever-stop-being-apart-of-my-life-because-I-care-about-you-a-lot type of love.
I'm not sure if that would really.. be a good thing to say to him.
In all honesty, I think that would scare him.
I know it's a possibilty for him to actually read what i'm saying in this
but I don't think he does.
Just when I thought I had him, I lost him yet again.
He's such a challenge. it seems as if he just loves the attention I give.
He absolutely loves being a pain in the ass to me.
I'm not sure why. What's so appealing about me frustrated and or confused?
Why can't he just trust me? I would never want to hurt him in anyway
(I mean really I just wanna sechs him up :P )
Is it wrong to like.. really wanna do that to someone?
Even though i'm assuming he could care less if I died
i'd still do him, even if he hates me and he was just using me
I would still do it.
Am I the only one who doesn't find that remotely wrong?
I guess you know, in those movies
there's always that 'mean' kid. The guy you think would love no one.
And ever since I was a girl in puberty, i've always been attracted
to being the one girl that the guy would love.
The guy who is mean to everyone, except for me.
I'm not sure what's attractive about that to me
but it is. And I guess he kind of fits that title.
I just want to feel his warm body on mine, doing haha... magical things.
Oh lust, How I hate you.
And yet, it's like love.
Oh god, who am I kidding.
I'm not that desperate.
I'm not that attached
I'm not that vulnerable
as you think my dear.
I'm pretty damn sick.
sick mentally
sick physically
sick emotionally.
Doctor, fix me?
please. I'm feeling like crap.
Fuck stock market projects, just fuck it.
She can rot in hell for making me do all this work.
It was such a chore copying Brennan's work, I tell you.
I thank "God" for people out there
who let me copy them.
I normally don't copy people, unless i'm extremely lazy
in which in this class
I am.
economics, do the economy a favor and rot in hell.
It's times like today
where the power is out
your room is lit up by candles
and you're listening to The Cure
that make you realize
how lonely you are.
..and pathetic.
goodness
I need to get laid.