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[49hoursxagoxx]

Wow.
i'm in a weird stage.
sometimes, i just could care less.
and other times
i really miss him.
Yeah, no one can comprehend what I miss.
it's when he's alone. when he's not being annoying, or a jackass.
when he's alone he makes me smile a lot a lot. and
i miss that deeply.
i just, don't know what i did for things
to get like this.
but whatever it is
i'm destined to fix it.
well.
i'll try.
and if i fail
than i give up
for good.
you seeing clearly..
for good.

According to my livejournal, it appears as if my life revolves around that.
/sigh
it's just what's always on my mind.
i have this ability to make myself happy
and i have an ability to make myself really
depressed.
now, considering i'm alone most of my life
you kind of adapt to being alone.
loneliness starts to disappear
and you're just used to it.
i'm in the adapting stage.
however; i dont think anyone should feel
the way i do now.
hopeless, dependent, and isolated.
but hey.
life goes on I suppose.
If I die alone, than
i'm a sad, sad being.