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I haven't wrote in a while, and I can see why.
I've let myself like someone, and that's not fun, considering I can't talk to him.
I can't... it just seems as if I say a simple 'hi' he'll reject me, it's weird.
Considering I can't resort to the internet for talking to him right now, kinda sucks.
I miss him so much. it's all I think about.
It's really scary though, because like.. I know it wont happen.
I need to expand my options. There's plenty of guys that like me, why not give them a chance?
Because i'm stuck on him. No one is like him. I sound like a pathetic douche, but it's true.
I care soo much about him it's unbearable.
I shouldn't of allowed me to feel like this.
I shouldn't of.
He doesn't even look at me at school ( which means I often gaze at him )
But he knows i'm there.
Why can't I say hi?
really.. is it.. that.. hard?
/sigh
I've really kept all this bottled up inside me for the fear of scaring him away
but he wont read this
i'm sure no one does.
I want him.
soo..
bad.
it hurts, really.
pathetic
= me.
argh.
I've let myself like someone, and that's not fun, considering I can't talk to him.
I can't... it just seems as if I say a simple 'hi' he'll reject me, it's weird.
Considering I can't resort to the internet for talking to him right now, kinda sucks.
I miss him so much. it's all I think about.
It's really scary though, because like.. I know it wont happen.
I need to expand my options. There's plenty of guys that like me, why not give them a chance?
Because i'm stuck on him. No one is like him. I sound like a pathetic douche, but it's true.
I care soo much about him it's unbearable.
I shouldn't of allowed me to feel like this.
I shouldn't of.
He doesn't even look at me at school ( which means I often gaze at him )
But he knows i'm there.
Why can't I say hi?
really.. is it.. that.. hard?
/sigh
I've really kept all this bottled up inside me for the fear of scaring him away
but he wont read this
i'm sure no one does.
I want him.
soo..
bad.
it hurts, really.
pathetic
= me.
argh.