stepping stones
i'm not good at the dating game, especially if it's long distance. and especially, especially if it hasn't even been solidified. i need to know, and this time i can't ask because everytime i have in the past...it's made things worse. sarina is coming to visit for a weekend. she'll be here in two weeks. and today she did something i hate, and she knows i hate it. today she told me that she called a few days ago while she was drunk and she wanted to ask me something...she wouldn't tell me what she wanted to ask me. things have changed between us. i still feel so completely and utterly happy when i'm around her, and she's the same, but there are times where i don't trust her sincerity. and right now i don't feel like it will ever work. but as soon as i see her, all my troubles disappear. i blame this on the fact that she broke my heart...but i broke her's first...
thursday was amazing. it was the best date i've ever had in my life; and the best day i've had in the past year. it felt like she never left. i'm scared of change and there are a few things we have to get straight in our lives before anything can happen.
so here is my descent into an open-long-distance-frienship-between-two-people-who-are-in-love...it's a god damn movie script i swear.
bring on the next stage you fuckers.
she asked me to take her out.
and i have a damn good plan cooking up in my head.
- derek -
thursday was amazing. it was the best date i've ever had in my life; and the best day i've had in the past year. it felt like she never left. i'm scared of change and there are a few things we have to get straight in our lives before anything can happen.
so here is my descent into an open-long-distance-frienship-between-two-people-who-are-in-love...it's a god damn movie script i swear.
bring on the next stage you fuckers.
she asked me to take her out.
and i have a damn good plan cooking up in my head.
- derek -