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so i'm 5 days post-op... i guess.
i feel so ... weird? like disgusting. i really hate this whole healing process. i want the bandages off my face. i want to be able to wash my face, i want to sleep in my bed and for the love of god, i want to go back to the gym.
no idea what i weigh, the scale is downstairs in my room and i haven't been allowed to walk downstairs yet.
but i feel motivated. i need to keep this up and add exercise back in because halloween is 3 weeks away. and i need to be a total hottie! i've surprised myself with my lack of food and how i'm coping, hopefully i can keep this up. meal replacement shakes are doing me well. i feel smaller, i look smaller, but i don't know?
i've looked at thinspo basically all day. i will be skinny, i will be hot and damn my boyfriend will be so impressed. i think tomorrow im going to make a braclet for myself... kinda like a reminder whenever i feel like reaching for something unhealthy, i'll see it and think no, i don't need it. so that's tomorrows plan. i'd do it now but again all my things are downstairs and i can't do stairs yet.
i feel so ... weird? like disgusting. i really hate this whole healing process. i want the bandages off my face. i want to be able to wash my face, i want to sleep in my bed and for the love of god, i want to go back to the gym.
no idea what i weigh, the scale is downstairs in my room and i haven't been allowed to walk downstairs yet.
but i feel motivated. i need to keep this up and add exercise back in because halloween is 3 weeks away. and i need to be a total hottie! i've surprised myself with my lack of food and how i'm coping, hopefully i can keep this up. meal replacement shakes are doing me well. i feel smaller, i look smaller, but i don't know?
i've looked at thinspo basically all day. i will be skinny, i will be hot and damn my boyfriend will be so impressed. i think tomorrow im going to make a braclet for myself... kinda like a reminder whenever i feel like reaching for something unhealthy, i'll see it and think no, i don't need it. so that's tomorrows plan. i'd do it now but again all my things are downstairs and i can't do stairs yet.