I've been thinkin'

[45cm_of_love]

I can't believe Dusk! She's such a meanie sometimes! I yelled at her today for giving Zero access to this journal and she just smiled and patted my head like a little kid ><"She's not always so bad though, like the other day she went outside and played in the snow with me, snowball fight and everything!! Our forts are melting now but it was still lots of fun^^ I really to like her a lot, no matter how much I complain about her, she's like a big sister to me and I miss her a lot when she goes away on "business" trips. Like now for instance, she's been gone to New York for 2 days now and never know how long she'll be gone. She's the only friend I have here that I see that often and it's not like I go to school or anything so I can't meet anyone that way.

I've been thinking more and more about getting a job lately, I could really use the money and it might do me some good to get out of the house every once and awhile so I can meet some new people. There's this really nice little book shop a few blocks away that might need some help, but I wanna ask Dusk what she thinks before I do anything. I'm just not sure what to do anymore, I was never one to take action and I always need someone's approval before I do something otherwise it feels like I'll get in trouble ya know?

I don't know anymore, I just can't think properly these days and I always feel so lost, maybe a job will help get me into some sort of routine so I can start figuring out my life again.