it doesn't feel right, holding someone else's hand.
Oh shit! it happened again.
i can stop
when i want to. i swear. but i hadn't seen him
in so long (3weeks) & he looked so good& i had to
&i don't really regret it either. a little bit.
it's so hard to stop once you start. it's
addicting. & i think it is for the both of us. i'm not
sure why i did it though & why i didn't try& stop it.
becus later i saw the other one. it's bad. becus
maybe i don't realize what i do to people &i don't
want to make him think anything i don't feel. but i do feel
it. i think it's harder for him than it is for me. maybe
it's the same. i know he'd make me happy. & i would. he's adorable&
he's beautiful& i want him. i could have him. but
it's still hard.
today is my second day not going to school. i
want to go but i don't. i'll go tomorrow. today i am packing & i have to clean my room. ALSO i just got finished eating lunchables chicken nuggets. kind of not really good. but food is food & i love to eat. so i'm not gonna sit here &complain!
i can stop
when i want to. i swear. but i hadn't seen him
in so long (3weeks) & he looked so good& i had to
&i don't really regret it either. a little bit.
it's so hard to stop once you start. it's
addicting. & i think it is for the both of us. i'm not
sure why i did it though & why i didn't try& stop it.
becus later i saw the other one. it's bad. becus
maybe i don't realize what i do to people &i don't
want to make him think anything i don't feel. but i do feel
it. i think it's harder for him than it is for me. maybe
it's the same. i know he'd make me happy. & i would. he's adorable&
he's beautiful& i want him. i could have him. but
it's still hard.
today is my second day not going to school. i
want to go but i don't. i'll go tomorrow. today i am packing & i have to clean my room. ALSO i just got finished eating lunchables chicken nuggets. kind of not really good. but food is food & i love to eat. so i'm not gonna sit here &complain!