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I've been meaning to update this thing for so long, and now I'm finally going to because I feel like writing. I think I'm going to start writing with normal punctuation because I haven't really since school and I want to get used to it again.
I am so busy. I have like 85874398 things to buy for college, and I have 8t9eu94u94 things to accomplish before I leave, and I have 9 days until I move in. I'm so overwhelmed. I've been kind of emotional since PAI ended. I'm not really sure why. I think it's because I've cleared my mind of this big, irritating... thing (don't ask) that was clouding my thoughts and opinions and really my whole life. I'm free now. I've been able to see things clearly, and I've been thinking a lot more about them. I don't have to hate things that I don't necessarily want to hate. I can do and think whatever I want to and not worry about making anyone upset. I don't have to deal with these dumb, restraining opinions that have been drilled through my brain because really... I don't want them there. I'm just ME now... with MY thoughts and opinions, and I don't want them affected by selfishness and immaturity.
PAI, by the way, was terrible. I don't want to write about it because, although I met some really wonderful people, I'm trying to forget about how terrible most of it was. Next year will be better. Next year I will be the best counselor on the earth. And if I'm not allowed to be, I will take revenge.
So anyway, I've been thinking about really random things. I have so many unanswered questions. So, I'm warning you... if I say something really strange to you or ask you a really random question or IM/email you out of nowhere, I don't really know what's wrong with me, but please just be a good friend and go along with it. Thanks in advance.
Incidentally, I'm leaving in about a week and I'm terrified because I got my roommate assignment, and her name is Sasha, and she's a cheerleader. Now, don't tell me not to stereotype. I didn't stereotype. But I talked to her, and she seems to fit the stereotype perfectly. So I'm off to a pretty unfortunate start. Maybe by some miracle she won't mind that I'm a huge loser and we'll get along ::crosses fingers::. Or maybe she'll be a big bitch to me and she'll wake up one morning to find that I cut off a big chunk of her hair. Either way, it should be an interesting experience.
Ok. Now I can check "update livejournal" off my huge list of things to do and move on to "email Chloe about PAI issues." I hope you're having a good summer. Even though I saw basically everyone today at band camp, I miss you all.
And in case anyone missed this the first time, I got a new sn. It's "co1ormyw0rld" so add it. :-)