Feb 15, 2011 01:43
Just looked at the clock and realised that Valentines Day 2011 has passed. I guess, Feb 14 is just another day when you're (happily?) "unattached".
I attempted to write up a resume today and I realised that I am SO unprepared to be employed. I look at the skills section and try to think of some to add and I honestly cannot think of many. Who on Earth would want to employ me?? I guess I'll have to consult a careers advisor or someone for some resume "sprucing up" tips, since it's an absolute joke at the moment.
Recently, though, I've been indulging in a range of "new hobbies" that don't last. I go and buy lots of things relating to that hobby but when I receive it, I just look at it for a moment and put it away. I then go and look for more things to buy for that hobby or look for other general stuff to blow my money on. Clearly, I'm aware of what I'm doing but I just can't or wont do anything about it. I believe this is my "escape mechanism" from real things in life that I should be caring about, like my studies, my future plans as well as various personal issues. I ask myself how do others remain so attached to their hobbies and then I uncover the answer myself, it's because they're GENUINELY interested in it, where as I'm just looking/buying/waiting for it in the mail because I just want something to forget about what really matters.
At times when I don't want to shop, I would sleep, play games, take walks and a whole bunch of other actions. Similar to how Marge from The Simpsons starts cleaning the house when she wants to take her mind of something... though, in my case it's an extended version that spills into many other areas and is often quite costly.
When I DO try and face the real problems, I always end up going in circles - coming up with a possible solution but then ALWAYS finding a hole in it and returning to square one again. The process goes on and on until I'm too exhausted to think about it anymore and then I shut down and revert to my "I don't give a crap mode" and basically, escape - again XD
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