Not Easy
Its not easy to get over that special someone that everytime that you saw them turned your entire day around. Its not easy to go through life without that partner you used to kiss with your eyes closed and just so excited to be with them. Life in general sucks. I know i've been told if things weren't meant to be they weren't to be, but now my question is why is it so hard? In the past I could get over things with no problem, I mean I'd be upset for awhile but I would get over it. This time is different, this time the feelings are so strong that not even god could break them. I'd never thought I would change for someone, I always told myself that no one is gonna change me but me. Its still true today, no one has changed me, I have changed for me and I like it. But now that I can look to my side and see no one there, I feel like im alone! I dont wanna be alone. I don't wanna be scared, but when it comes down to it...I AM. I need my extra person that stood beside me. I screwed up. When you are young you thing being stupid is cool and its fun. Do a degree it is but as you grow you need to stop. I didn't now look at me im alone, I have a terrific friend out of it. I just wish I had that friend beside me holding my hand. Im so sorry, its not that we are different, its cause that I am stubborn and not a good listener when thing are bad and I don't pay attention. I'm paying attention now, but its too late,but i dont want it to be.