confused
Forever it takes me to find a girl that likes me, laughs at my jokes, and likes hanging out. Im not saying just one person im saying any gf ive ever had. I know a lot of them didnt stay friends with me but thats ok. It just seems that when I do find someone and I really like them and they like me back we lick, but after awhile i guess it fades or just does something. Im not ready to let go but they are ready to find someone else, and I just don't get what is wrong with me. I wish someone would explain why my life works like this? I can find someone im intrested in but they way they are sometimes they just seems to busy to keep up with me and everything else goin on,which i know is hard and understand at times. But I try and devote a lot of my time and my free will to do whatever for them and get left back. I know some don't mean to. People tell me what a great guy I am and how fun I am to be with, and if im cute or not but that seems to be the jist of it. There is no attraction, there is just steven the friend who can make people laugh and feel good. I dont mind it, dont get me wrong i love to see people smilie and hang out with me. I know I do some things wrong and some people dont like somethings I do and im sorry that I am that way, but i just need help, I need direction and when im stubborn help me wake up back into reality and then I will see what they are trying to say. The bottom line is I dont thnk im loved the way I show love to others which i know is different but its who i am and i cant change it. Along time ago someone told me if you just be yourself you will find that someone who loves you and care for you and doesnt care how you act but who you are inside. And inside im a sweet guy who care a lot about life and love.