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Sorry about my very emo,and depressing previous journal. I wasnt in my norm.
You know I get lonely now. People say its better to love and lose than to never love at all. That may be true in some ways, but for me its a little different. Now that i've had the love and all that came along with it, it sucks to not be able to have it. So I get lonely and I get to thinkin about the past, him, and well you know. I get sad. But dont get me wrong. I dont miss him. I'm over that. I just miss having that feeling.
And now for some reason I think its going to be a long while before I have another relationship.
I just wish I could meet another guy that wasnt a jerk-off. Lately, only the mexican workers,and the vatos/homies that are interested. The mexican workers are just scary. The vatos/homies are tempting but I know better. Sometimes a big ass just attracts the wrong kind.
Oh well fuck. Today I smoked, went to school, came home, smoked, went to ambers, smoked, went to the park, smoked, went home, ate, went to shelyns, smoked a blunt, drove to the taco shop, came home, smoked, made some coffee, and here I am on the computer. Well, later on friends I wish you all well.
-love cari
You know I get lonely now. People say its better to love and lose than to never love at all. That may be true in some ways, but for me its a little different. Now that i've had the love and all that came along with it, it sucks to not be able to have it. So I get lonely and I get to thinkin about the past, him, and well you know. I get sad. But dont get me wrong. I dont miss him. I'm over that. I just miss having that feeling.
And now for some reason I think its going to be a long while before I have another relationship.
I just wish I could meet another guy that wasnt a jerk-off. Lately, only the mexican workers,and the vatos/homies that are interested. The mexican workers are just scary. The vatos/homies are tempting but I know better. Sometimes a big ass just attracts the wrong kind.
Oh well fuck. Today I smoked, went to school, came home, smoked, went to ambers, smoked, went to the park, smoked, went home, ate, went to shelyns, smoked a blunt, drove to the taco shop, came home, smoked, made some coffee, and here I am on the computer. Well, later on friends I wish you all well.
-love cari