waking up at 1:30 sucks
things are weird right now. i'm overwhelmed with people. i need to be alone but then when i am...i feel like, "where did everyone go?" it'd be cool to live with only one other person. i was so used to being alone this summer and now i never am. it's quite the transition. i NEED to focus more. i feel great that i'm actually more active this semester but why do my priorities seem out of whack? oh schmeeeeh.
i look at you and i think, "it seems like we spent so much time apart, and now you're right here for me to enjoy...whenever i want!" is everything ok? i have so many thoughts in my head and i don't know how to organize them or...say them. i want us to flow...and fall into things. with all these people, and their sneers and jokes, it's hard to be happy with us knowing that they aren't happy...seeing us happy. does that make sense? maybe i worry about that WAY too much. but you've been great, i can always smile when i'm with you. and laugh at your "thats what she said" jokes even though apparently you havent said them in 2 days! pretty baby.
i hope i'm a good friend. i have trouble doing the whole "do things for yourself" bit when i'm always feel like i've let someone down afterwards. i think i need to be more thoughtful when it comes to them.
well i should submit this before my computer shuts down by itself...! MEEEEH!
i look at you and i think, "it seems like we spent so much time apart, and now you're right here for me to enjoy...whenever i want!" is everything ok? i have so many thoughts in my head and i don't know how to organize them or...say them. i want us to flow...and fall into things. with all these people, and their sneers and jokes, it's hard to be happy with us knowing that they aren't happy...seeing us happy. does that make sense? maybe i worry about that WAY too much. but you've been great, i can always smile when i'm with you. and laugh at your "thats what she said" jokes even though apparently you havent said them in 2 days! pretty baby.
i hope i'm a good friend. i have trouble doing the whole "do things for yourself" bit when i'm always feel like i've let someone down afterwards. i think i need to be more thoughtful when it comes to them.
well i should submit this before my computer shuts down by itself...! MEEEEH!