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On friday August 13th I cut again 6 times across my wrist and tonight I was talking to manda and her new hunny Josh*lol* and I played hold on and we all got depressed, I wanted to cut again, Josh was gunna kill himself, and Manda was all blehh. I swear to god it was the first time I cried in so long, Josh and manda both know theres something wrong with me but I wudnt tell them what. I wanna cut again so bad, I want to feel the blood run down as horrible as that is I really do, I dont want anyone to find out cuz...yeah..Damn it....I want to cut but Im tired of being called a cutter, No one knows the shit Ive been thru, no one knows whats wrong with me, so they need to quit fuckin judgin me cuz I cut...*cries* Damn it where is he when I need him....