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so i'm starting to fall for someone.
a small town boy.
my pride is making me find negatives in this, but it's so hard to do when you've got someone so right for you.
I just don't like the possibility of any feeling of dependancy. I'm too proud of the fact that I work through everything on my own, and a shift towards having someone to share my life with is terrifying. Now don't let me be misheard, I'm very happy and very excited for all of this, but it involves a radical shift in the way i live my life, and that could be the downfall here. You all know I can get cranky when I'm uncomfortable with something. The thought of bringing someone into my own inevitable downward spiral makes me feel guilty. I will suck down into it, if for no reason but to test him out. Thats not fair. I don't want to do that to anyone. but my insecurities control my world, not my desires.
ive got so many questions for myself, but time is holding the answers captive until the cuckoo clucks again in his broken clock.
a small town boy.
my pride is making me find negatives in this, but it's so hard to do when you've got someone so right for you.
I just don't like the possibility of any feeling of dependancy. I'm too proud of the fact that I work through everything on my own, and a shift towards having someone to share my life with is terrifying. Now don't let me be misheard, I'm very happy and very excited for all of this, but it involves a radical shift in the way i live my life, and that could be the downfall here. You all know I can get cranky when I'm uncomfortable with something. The thought of bringing someone into my own inevitable downward spiral makes me feel guilty. I will suck down into it, if for no reason but to test him out. Thats not fair. I don't want to do that to anyone. but my insecurities control my world, not my desires.
ive got so many questions for myself, but time is holding the answers captive until the cuckoo clucks again in his broken clock.