The legace lives on.

Nov 08, 2005 22:02

About 5 minutes ago, I gave my brother something that I hold very close to me (my black pick necklace) for very different reasons. This was originally my grandfather's pick that he gave me with my first guitar years ago. When I was younger, I would give my brother more hell than any older brother should. Back then he was at the same point where I was at his age.....no friends, hated by everyone in the class, bad grades, trouble with mom, trouble with the opposite sex, hell, even trouble with finding myself......but as I grew older I realized a lot of things about "family". Family can also relate to your closest friends, important belongings, music, art, self appreciation, etc. But one thing i've taken into consideration more than I ever have is blood relatives. My mom and I have talked countless times about when she's gone, Jeff and I are all that we have......true to an extent, but true to the "T" in this situation. I've beat that kid up countless times, called him names, degraded him, beliddled him......whatever. I gave him this, 'cause he's the most important thing to me. He's my blood. My half. 1/2 of the unstoppable Pauley duo.....and already he's taken after me so much. It brings a smile to my face to this this kid and I get along so well now, understand eachother, and talk about all these that really matter. I snicker a lot when the plethora of girls he knows calls the house phone every 5 minutes. Annoying? Yes, but it's cool to see him really get to that age and start becoming himself. He really is a good kid and still has a lot to learn, as do I......but time will provide us with all that we need to keep our shit strong. He is me, and I am him. We are the only two sons that Denise McMullen has beared.....so it' is very important to me, and in time, him as well, that we keep close and never lose eachother.....for if something were to happen to him, I would ruthlessly walk the streets to find some answers....or kill if necessary. I anxiously await the day to help him through his first hangover, his first heartbreak, his first back-stab, his first love of a band, his first night out on the big city, his first....anything. Although I won't live forever......as i'm sure he will precede me....I will say this. Even though you'll never see this, I hope you know I love you, and nothing will change that. I'll always be there for you even after i'm dead.....and even if i'm hard on you at times and long gone, I'll ALWAYS be your brother and be by your side.
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