Fandom 19
Title: Scared.
Fandom: Cardpcator Sakura
Rating: G
Summary: Yukito never used to worry but things are different now.
Yukito didn’t usually get scared of things. He tended to think that mostly, everything would sort itself out if you just looked after yourself and your friends. There was nothing in this world that really needed to be panicked about.
But something was wrong. He knew something was wrong. But he didn’t know what.
He couldn’t stop eating. He’d always had a larger appetite than most people but now he seemed to constantly need food. He just couldn’t seem to stop himself. If he wasn’t eating, his stomach ached a cold sort of ache, as though he hadn’t eaten anything all day. Perhaps that was why he was so tired all the time now. He’d catch himself almost falling asleep in class or even walking home. How could anyone fall asleep standing up? It was ridiculous. He went to bed at sensible times but it was still so hard to take up and he just couldn’t work out why.
Then there were the memory lapses. Time after time he’d find himself in places without knowing how he’d got there or what he’d been doing. He tried to laugh it off, tried to tell himself he was just being absent-minded but he knew it was more than that. How could he keep ending up in places without knowing why? It didn’t make sense. None of it made sense at all.
He wished he could talk to Touya about it. Touya always made things like that okay. He could usually explain things and when he couldn’t, he tended to feel that it wasn’t something to worry about anyway. But it was nearly impossible to get Touya on his own these days. They were both busy with school, Touya was working and keeping an eye on his sister and when they were together, Nakaru always seemed to appear from nowhere, pouncing on Touya. (Touya always got angry but that was something else Yukito sort of wondered about, sort of worried about if he was being truthful with himself. Maybe Touya was only angry because it was so blatant. Nakaru was pretty, maybe, maybe, maybe. So many maybes. But it wasn’t like he had a right to really worry, was it?)
He kept trying to shake his worries away. Everything would be fine. Of course it would. Touya was his best friend no matter what. Maybe the food thing was just a late growth spurt or something odd like that. It would explain the tiredness too. And maybe the forgetting was because he was half-asleep all the time. That explained everything, didn’t it? Nothing to worry about.
Only somehow, he was kind of scared just the same.
Fandom: Cardpcator Sakura
Rating: G
Summary: Yukito never used to worry but things are different now.
Yukito didn’t usually get scared of things. He tended to think that mostly, everything would sort itself out if you just looked after yourself and your friends. There was nothing in this world that really needed to be panicked about.
But something was wrong. He knew something was wrong. But he didn’t know what.
He couldn’t stop eating. He’d always had a larger appetite than most people but now he seemed to constantly need food. He just couldn’t seem to stop himself. If he wasn’t eating, his stomach ached a cold sort of ache, as though he hadn’t eaten anything all day. Perhaps that was why he was so tired all the time now. He’d catch himself almost falling asleep in class or even walking home. How could anyone fall asleep standing up? It was ridiculous. He went to bed at sensible times but it was still so hard to take up and he just couldn’t work out why.
Then there were the memory lapses. Time after time he’d find himself in places without knowing how he’d got there or what he’d been doing. He tried to laugh it off, tried to tell himself he was just being absent-minded but he knew it was more than that. How could he keep ending up in places without knowing why? It didn’t make sense. None of it made sense at all.
He wished he could talk to Touya about it. Touya always made things like that okay. He could usually explain things and when he couldn’t, he tended to feel that it wasn’t something to worry about anyway. But it was nearly impossible to get Touya on his own these days. They were both busy with school, Touya was working and keeping an eye on his sister and when they were together, Nakaru always seemed to appear from nowhere, pouncing on Touya. (Touya always got angry but that was something else Yukito sort of wondered about, sort of worried about if he was being truthful with himself. Maybe Touya was only angry because it was so blatant. Nakaru was pretty, maybe, maybe, maybe. So many maybes. But it wasn’t like he had a right to really worry, was it?)
He kept trying to shake his worries away. Everything would be fine. Of course it would. Touya was his best friend no matter what. Maybe the food thing was just a late growth spurt or something odd like that. It would explain the tiredness too. And maybe the forgetting was because he was half-asleep all the time. That explained everything, didn’t it? Nothing to worry about.
Only somehow, he was kind of scared just the same.