181012 Pain Complain
Yesterday was a high pain day, and it was tempting to give up. I did get to the store to buy more coffee. My older daughter's supply disappeared with breakfast. Maybe today I will convince myself that coffee is enough. This pain is getting worse. Why can't I just fast? The monster in my gut cries out for glucose, and aches when I don't give in. Then it aches, or rather stabs and slices, when I do get it. Last night I wanted to curl up and die. My younger daughter yelled at me, because I was getting snappy with her for misplacing some important paperwork.
The dark side of serious illness lives in the emotional roller coaster that families endure. I don't want to guard my words. I don't want to spare anyone's feelings. I do want things to go MY way, because things in my body aren't letting me do what I want! I want to be free.
I watched *The Fasting Video* on You Tube. It came in three parts and covered everything from amazing health benefits when done correctly to the pitfalls of anorexia, which is the ultimate in how to do it incorrectly. I could use some of those amazing health benefits.
This year's NaNoWriMo might cover this dark subject...
The dark side of serious illness lives in the emotional roller coaster that families endure. I don't want to guard my words. I don't want to spare anyone's feelings. I do want things to go MY way, because things in my body aren't letting me do what I want! I want to be free.
I watched *The Fasting Video* on You Tube. It came in three parts and covered everything from amazing health benefits when done correctly to the pitfalls of anorexia, which is the ultimate in how to do it incorrectly. I could use some of those amazing health benefits.
This year's NaNoWriMo might cover this dark subject...