Useless....
I am at ASU for the millionth time. I have been really depressed lately. I keep trying to stop doing speed, but every time I am around it I feel the urge to do it. It seems to be the only time I am happy. And when I am coming down from my high, I get sooo depressed, almost suicidal. I scare myself. I call Kris all the time in the Navy, and I always wonder how things would be different if I would have treated him better. I would probably be up there with him in Connecticut. He cared for me sooo much and i just ripped his heart out and stomped on it. Why do I always hurt the people who care for me most? I am pretty much homeless right now. I am staying with this guy in Mesa, but he is a tweaker, and I dont want anything to do with those people anymore. I want to find a place to live, get a job, and get back on my feet. I really need a place to live though. Can someone please help me out? I promise that I am going to try to make a change in my life for the better.