hah its bedtime!
yeah def. cant sleep so i dont know whats going on with that? but eh i took some tylenol pm.. lol so i should be knocked out soon..
yeah i've been doing a lot of thinking lately.. and i mean i said it myself this fighting stuff is nonsense.. i mean its one thing to like not like the person, but you dont have to like keep bringing it up.. and arguing it gets you no where.i mean im gonna say this seriously not mean or bitchy or dramatic cuz i dont really give a shit either way and yet again, dont want arguing im done with the 37 comment nonsense its ridiclous. if you dont like me. fine okay? then go on your merry little way and just get the fuck over it. if you really were "trying" to be my friend, you wouldnt of given up thats the point. and i mean i really did like you as a friend, and you helped me thru alot. just things faded.and im sorry? it really wasnt my fault..and anywayss.. to what i was thinking that wasnt letting me sleep! ive prolly said this quote b4.. but i never really looked at it until tonight
in order to change the future
you have to accept the past.
and that is so friggen true.. i have to forgive myself for so much that ive done. and that will take a lot of time.. like no other. but its baby steps, and plus speakin of babies.. they didnt just come out walking? there was labor= work.
you gotta start with baby steps, you cant just take a gaint leap without falling.
and thats what has to be done, thats just the summerized verison lol my journal to miss. d has 7 pages=] she'll love that.. lol
well im gonna stop blabbing cuz its just gonna lead me to more thinking and more not sleeping
daniel just informed me. that..hes moving after summer. to go to college. in boston.=[
and another thing.. its funny.. exactly 3 months ago.. steven and me broke up. 11/3/04 and 3 months later.. im finally deciding. that i said goodbye a while ago? why am i still holding on...funny how things work out these days