love.
why is love so much pain? i thought it was suppose to be filled with joy, happiness, fulfillment. i was wrong. don't get me wrong, love does have its good moments, but they always end. after being hurt so many times, it makes you wonder, "is there anyone in the world who won't break my heart?!" i wanted to be a wife, a mother, a best friend.. got the mother thing down ;]
another thing.. why is it that most men have too much pride and want to act "hard" when they're really hurting just as bad, if not worse, than we are? is it so hard for a man to say, "baby im sorry" or "i love you, please don't leave"...
i feel trapped. i have to put on this happy face for everyone in the world to see because i don't want to have to be reminded everyday that i'm dying. (emotionally). for someone to come up to me," Amy are you okay? i know what you're going thru.." blah blah blah.
i feel so lost. like, i'm in a deep forest and every turn i make, leads me right back to the path i started from. i can't find a way out. i'm hungry, tired, just all around drained. no guidance, no map, no nothing.. just a broken heart and no tears left to cry.
when will the pain end? i try everyday to keep my mind focused on the positive, but all that ends up is the negative staring me down like a hungry pack of wolves. ready to devour my every being. and leave just a cold, dead body with no soul. no emotion. no heart.
im screaming at the top of my lungs for help, and my voice is silent. no one can hear me. no one can see me. im crying out with the last breath i take; no response. just a whisper...wonder who that could be?
another thing.. why is it that most men have too much pride and want to act "hard" when they're really hurting just as bad, if not worse, than we are? is it so hard for a man to say, "baby im sorry" or "i love you, please don't leave"...
i feel trapped. i have to put on this happy face for everyone in the world to see because i don't want to have to be reminded everyday that i'm dying. (emotionally). for someone to come up to me," Amy are you okay? i know what you're going thru.." blah blah blah.
i feel so lost. like, i'm in a deep forest and every turn i make, leads me right back to the path i started from. i can't find a way out. i'm hungry, tired, just all around drained. no guidance, no map, no nothing.. just a broken heart and no tears left to cry.
when will the pain end? i try everyday to keep my mind focused on the positive, but all that ends up is the negative staring me down like a hungry pack of wolves. ready to devour my every being. and leave just a cold, dead body with no soul. no emotion. no heart.
im screaming at the top of my lungs for help, and my voice is silent. no one can hear me. no one can see me. im crying out with the last breath i take; no response. just a whisper...wonder who that could be?