Strangeness
Mark and I have been talking again. It's completely crazy, I know. But at the same time, I realize now how much I miss his friendship. I think it would have been a little bit easier for me to cope with what happened if I had him as a friend at the time.
At the same time, I wish everytime it didn't bring up the feelings of what happened on July 28, 2007. Maybe I'm not as over this as I thought.
But then, yet another feeling comes in. The one where I realize that I love Mark, but I'm not in love with him. And that gives me closure. I couldn't really have it until we were talking again.
All in all, it still makes me wonder about the strangeness of my life.
At the same time, I wish everytime it didn't bring up the feelings of what happened on July 28, 2007. Maybe I'm not as over this as I thought.
But then, yet another feeling comes in. The one where I realize that I love Mark, but I'm not in love with him. And that gives me closure. I couldn't really have it until we were talking again.
All in all, it still makes me wonder about the strangeness of my life.