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I'm never going to find anyone.
I'm boring and needy and no one will ever love me.
If I ever do find someone I can be satisfied with, they will hurt me. Thats how it's happened before.
I might as well learn to be a stone.
No. No. I'm just down. AHHHh what is going on with me today. and yesterday.
My mind is in shambles. I cannot think correctly. I cannot convince myself of things I usually can convince myself of.
I want to crawl in bed and sleep forever and ever so no one sees me like this.
I'm very upset. Anxious. Desperate. I need a friend. He's busy. They're both busy.
I think I'm slowly going insane.
I can't do this. No no no no no. I can't I can't. But I will. And I am.
What am I doing to myself.
I kind of want to delete this whole entry. I'm making myself look like I'm psyco.
I probably am.
I'm boring and needy and no one will ever love me.
If I ever do find someone I can be satisfied with, they will hurt me. Thats how it's happened before.
I might as well learn to be a stone.
No. No. I'm just down. AHHHh what is going on with me today. and yesterday.
My mind is in shambles. I cannot think correctly. I cannot convince myself of things I usually can convince myself of.
I want to crawl in bed and sleep forever and ever so no one sees me like this.
I'm very upset. Anxious. Desperate. I need a friend. He's busy. They're both busy.
I think I'm slowly going insane.
I can't do this. No no no no no. I can't I can't. But I will. And I am.
What am I doing to myself.
I kind of want to delete this whole entry. I'm making myself look like I'm psyco.
I probably am.