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not a happy kid tonight
i dont know whats going on... with Needham and with me
For some reason, lately i am really unhappy with the way things are going
like, i am starting to notice things about people I ABSOUTELY love that make me think about if i really fit in with them. like, not quite embarassment, just kinda like, removal? i cant explain it. but it sucks. Maybe its my inability to easily trust people... maybe its my uncomfortableness in certain situations. maybe its my inexperience in different areas. maybe its my "innocence" (no drugs, alcohol, etc). i dont know. but i dont fit in.
It scares me. this was our last real Needham thanksgiving. We won everyhting- powderpuff and the boys football game against Wellesley. That should have made me so happy! it did, but of course there were sad undertones for Greg, Jenny, and Yung.
I feel like nothings going right. not even my freakin Senior pictures are coming out right. like, i look "stocky" according to Amy. not too flattering. theyre supposed to be the best pictures you take- the ones that people will always remember you by. How fitting- the girl who doesnt fit in looks different than everyone else.
Not sure what to do... about college, friends, family, boys, etc. this sucks. sorry if ive been in a mad mood lately. no one did anything to make it... its all me. and im trying to figure it out.
i dont know whats going on... with Needham and with me
For some reason, lately i am really unhappy with the way things are going
like, i am starting to notice things about people I ABSOUTELY love that make me think about if i really fit in with them. like, not quite embarassment, just kinda like, removal? i cant explain it. but it sucks. Maybe its my inability to easily trust people... maybe its my uncomfortableness in certain situations. maybe its my inexperience in different areas. maybe its my "innocence" (no drugs, alcohol, etc). i dont know. but i dont fit in.
It scares me. this was our last real Needham thanksgiving. We won everyhting- powderpuff and the boys football game against Wellesley. That should have made me so happy! it did, but of course there were sad undertones for Greg, Jenny, and Yung.
I feel like nothings going right. not even my freakin Senior pictures are coming out right. like, i look "stocky" according to Amy. not too flattering. theyre supposed to be the best pictures you take- the ones that people will always remember you by. How fitting- the girl who doesnt fit in looks different than everyone else.
Not sure what to do... about college, friends, family, boys, etc. this sucks. sorry if ive been in a mad mood lately. no one did anything to make it... its all me. and im trying to figure it out.