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i'm not well today. i thought it was just my "women's troubles" at first, combined with hangover maybe. but no. pretty sure now that i've got a little touch of something.
but i'm not going to stay sick goddammit. i'm not. i have to go to orlando and to new york in the next couple of weeks, and i'm not going to be sick doing that.
other than that... the israeli. oh, the israeli. remember the dip-peak comment? well, it's back up to a peak again. high up.
i'm about to be 25 pretty soon. that's so scary. jonathan turned to me today and said, "you know, twenty-five is like, a whole different ball game, because you can't stop thinking, i'm twenty-five now." which seems like an obvious and slightly retarded thing to say, but i completely understood. i'm going to be old. like a car-renting, health insurance having sort of person old.
jon also said something like " statistically, most women are married by the time they're twenty-four". which means, i've just passed the average marriage age, single. which i'm fine with, i'm totally against getting married until you become a real person... but that makes me wonder, do these women feel like real people before 25. are they responsible, and employed and ready for a home and a mortgage and all of the rest? i've never even had a credit card or a car payment. i'm a professional student, and as a result i still rely financially on my family occasionally. my dad paid my rent until last year. how the hell could i even consider beginning my own home???
i feel old and icky.