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"things are an awkward beauty these past few weeks...days. i have done many things, dreamed of new dreams and hoped for time to stop. we look at eachother different, we are so much closer then we used to be. it's quite amazing. we catch eachothers eyes like we were meant to glance and turn at the exact same moment. i feel something different, something more, yet i don't know what it is. i cannot explain it. maybe later tonight i will figure it all out. i had it this morning when he looked at me. what was it...? "-k
it's because you fucked him, you idiot! that's all! but why can't i tell you this to your face....?
"i have nothing to say about last night, but i have everything to tell. it was a good time but still rather odd. i still shake like crazy when he's around. he can come over whenever he wants, we can listen to the train in the distance. it'll never happen. you know i am all up for sexual pleasure but i don't see what's the big deal about it. i am a hopeless romantic, i feel nothing unless love is there. someday i will find the most wonderful boy. like the one i know now says " that a lot of people have, do and will like me that way." whatever i won't believe it. he can be so beautiful. we have a soft spot for eachother. i can see it in his eyes. i can see me in his eyes."-k
its ridiculous. all of this, because you fucked him. i know how these things work. 'specially for girls.
"umm yeah.
a friend came over tonight
he's a good time
i had him answer the phone when another friend called me today
she was totally confused, it was a laugh
it was good night until the end
i can't do it, i can't do it
so now i have to tell people that i can't do that
he says it's alright
the shit is all over my bed
arrghh"-k
its kind of funny. she can't do it. and yes, that friend was me. its annoying, cos its just another chapter from third limited present. yes, i decided on a tense. third limited, present. it will be fun.
but i would be doing the same thing if i had fucked someone! things are different, yes! because you fucked him! no, you did not make love to him, or have sex with him, you fucked him. nick is the kind of boy who you can only fuck. that's it.
argh!
it's because you fucked him, you idiot! that's all! but why can't i tell you this to your face....?
"i have nothing to say about last night, but i have everything to tell. it was a good time but still rather odd. i still shake like crazy when he's around. he can come over whenever he wants, we can listen to the train in the distance. it'll never happen. you know i am all up for sexual pleasure but i don't see what's the big deal about it. i am a hopeless romantic, i feel nothing unless love is there. someday i will find the most wonderful boy. like the one i know now says " that a lot of people have, do and will like me that way." whatever i won't believe it. he can be so beautiful. we have a soft spot for eachother. i can see it in his eyes. i can see me in his eyes."-k
its ridiculous. all of this, because you fucked him. i know how these things work. 'specially for girls.
"umm yeah.
a friend came over tonight
he's a good time
i had him answer the phone when another friend called me today
she was totally confused, it was a laugh
it was good night until the end
i can't do it, i can't do it
so now i have to tell people that i can't do that
he says it's alright
the shit is all over my bed
arrghh"-k
its kind of funny. she can't do it. and yes, that friend was me. its annoying, cos its just another chapter from third limited present. yes, i decided on a tense. third limited, present. it will be fun.
but i would be doing the same thing if i had fucked someone! things are different, yes! because you fucked him! no, you did not make love to him, or have sex with him, you fucked him. nick is the kind of boy who you can only fuck. that's it.
argh!