I had a visitor! [+ private]
Regina and Ben (and Trilo) came to visit me at my cell today. It was good to see them, and I was able to give Regina the origami tiger I made during arts and crafts the other day. I know it was only a few weeks ago that I last saw her, but she seems to have grown more than ever! In fact, she's starting to look a lot like her mother. I still remember her, a little...
Regina told me she talked a bit with some of my cell mates. Being family, I guess this is the part where I should say, "Keep away from my sister, or you'll regret it!" or something like that. I'm sure that's not necessary, though.
Oh, and Mr. Tigre, Regina said you didn't look well. I'm sorry if she caused you any trouble. It's not much, but I made you something to make up for it:
I thought I saw that you had one of these... It's supposed to be lucky or something? I'm not really sure but it looks intimidating!
I hope you can come see me again soon, Regina! You too, Ben!
[[The rest of this entry is actually a separate, private entry]]
I don't usually do this, but I thought it might help to write my thoughts out a little. It's supposed to help, isn't it? Talking certainly doesn't seem to.
I was glad to see Regina. I was glad that I was glad to see her. And Ben, too! But when it comes up only a few hours later, all of a sudden it feels like...I can't handle it again. It only takes a few words to make me feel awful all over again. I'm sure Mr. Aramando didn't even mean what he said the way it sounded - at least, I'm mostly sure he didn't - but he was still right about a lot of things. Wrong about others...
Maybe it's easier to just say everyone around here is evil. But I don't have the right to judge them like that. What I did... wasn't just a mistake. I wasn't trying to save anyone, like Mr. Armando was. So it would be stupid of me to say that I won't talk to other prisoners based on what they did, wouldn't it? I killed someone I loved. That's even worse than killing someone you hate, isn't it? Whatever anyone else did, or what Mr. Armando thinks of them, I'm not any different.
Maybe he only associates with me because I'm the only person with no influence and who isn't interested in fighting him. I'm sure he wouldn't if he really knew why I'm here. If I was completely honest with him...
I don't think this typing thing is working very well, either.
Regina told me she talked a bit with some of my cell mates. Being family, I guess this is the part where I should say, "Keep away from my sister, or you'll regret it!" or something like that. I'm sure that's not necessary, though.
Oh, and Mr. Tigre, Regina said you didn't look well. I'm sorry if she caused you any trouble. It's not much, but I made you something to make up for it:
I thought I saw that you had one of these... It's supposed to be lucky or something? I'm not really sure but it looks intimidating!
I hope you can come see me again soon, Regina! You too, Ben!
[[The rest of this entry is actually a separate, private entry]]
I don't usually do this, but I thought it might help to write my thoughts out a little. It's supposed to help, isn't it? Talking certainly doesn't seem to.
I was glad to see Regina. I was glad that I was glad to see her. And Ben, too! But when it comes up only a few hours later, all of a sudden it feels like...I can't handle it again. It only takes a few words to make me feel awful all over again. I'm sure Mr. Aramando didn't even mean what he said the way it sounded - at least, I'm mostly sure he didn't - but he was still right about a lot of things. Wrong about others...
Maybe it's easier to just say everyone around here is evil. But I don't have the right to judge them like that. What I did... wasn't just a mistake. I wasn't trying to save anyone, like Mr. Armando was. So it would be stupid of me to say that I won't talk to other prisoners based on what they did, wouldn't it? I killed someone I loved. That's even worse than killing someone you hate, isn't it? Whatever anyone else did, or what Mr. Armando thinks of them, I'm not any different.
Maybe he only associates with me because I'm the only person with no influence and who isn't interested in fighting him. I'm sure he wouldn't if he really knew why I'm here. If I was completely honest with him...
I don't think this typing thing is working very well, either.