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I’m going to try to make this sound all right.
Because right now, it all sounds right in my mind, and if I can just get the thoughts down on something, then maybe it will make that much more sense. I just believe tonight, not for any particular reason other than for the sake of doing it sooner than later, certain things I need come right out and say. I have an astounding tendency to make this journal the outlet of my over-dramatic rants and raves, and it’s been good for me, but I have to acknowledge, there are other methods to getting things off my chest other than building it up to something it isn’t. This is my life I’ve been living day to day. It isn’t complex. It isn’t worth a million bucks. It isn’t that uphill battle I’m pretending to fight a lot of the time. It just is what it is. I think I’m going to come down from my reigning throne of the online drama queen for once and for all.
More and more, I’m finding that my innovation lies behind comedy and writing; either creating or being a part of it in some shape or form. I’m a little kid with shallow dreams - Green Peace isn’t for me and I’m not running into a burning building to save anyone. For me, sketch comedy and improv are like the one release I get from the rest of the world, and for anything to even give me that euphoric feeling temporarily, when I’m the type of kid who over thinks to death every situation I’m confronted with, well, it’s huge. And I can’t stay away. I want to be one of the talented kids.
So that’s it. I can’t be the one to doubt myself anymore. I’m serious about what I say, and now I’m going to put my best foot forward and keep my fingers crossed that I’ll be seeing the fruits of my labor in long enough time. I’m talking about everything in general here, too. I’ve got plenty of outlets to be investing myself into, but I’ve just been too lazy to follow up on any one. I can’t be concerned with failure or anything that falls through my hands anymore, either. Every time I fall down, consider this my word, I’ll get right back up on my feet as soon as it’s next possible.
I don’t have any more room to care about the type of people who say one thing and mean another. I don’t have any more room for hypocrites, contradictions, settling for being revered as second best, or those who would purposely find fault in me because they’re selfish about their own happiness. Fuck drama. I’m not letting it slow me down and make me any less happy than I should honestly be. My life won’t be long; but it’ll be full. To those of you who wish me well, I will make you proud. To those of you who don’t even care what I say or can’t take it seriously, it doesn’t change a thing to me.
Because right now, it all sounds right in my mind, and if I can just get the thoughts down on something, then maybe it will make that much more sense. I just believe tonight, not for any particular reason other than for the sake of doing it sooner than later, certain things I need come right out and say. I have an astounding tendency to make this journal the outlet of my over-dramatic rants and raves, and it’s been good for me, but I have to acknowledge, there are other methods to getting things off my chest other than building it up to something it isn’t. This is my life I’ve been living day to day. It isn’t complex. It isn’t worth a million bucks. It isn’t that uphill battle I’m pretending to fight a lot of the time. It just is what it is. I think I’m going to come down from my reigning throne of the online drama queen for once and for all.
More and more, I’m finding that my innovation lies behind comedy and writing; either creating or being a part of it in some shape or form. I’m a little kid with shallow dreams - Green Peace isn’t for me and I’m not running into a burning building to save anyone. For me, sketch comedy and improv are like the one release I get from the rest of the world, and for anything to even give me that euphoric feeling temporarily, when I’m the type of kid who over thinks to death every situation I’m confronted with, well, it’s huge. And I can’t stay away. I want to be one of the talented kids.
So that’s it. I can’t be the one to doubt myself anymore. I’m serious about what I say, and now I’m going to put my best foot forward and keep my fingers crossed that I’ll be seeing the fruits of my labor in long enough time. I’m talking about everything in general here, too. I’ve got plenty of outlets to be investing myself into, but I’ve just been too lazy to follow up on any one. I can’t be concerned with failure or anything that falls through my hands anymore, either. Every time I fall down, consider this my word, I’ll get right back up on my feet as soon as it’s next possible.
I don’t have any more room to care about the type of people who say one thing and mean another. I don’t have any more room for hypocrites, contradictions, settling for being revered as second best, or those who would purposely find fault in me because they’re selfish about their own happiness. Fuck drama. I’m not letting it slow me down and make me any less happy than I should honestly be. My life won’t be long; but it’ll be full. To those of you who wish me well, I will make you proud. To those of you who don’t even care what I say or can’t take it seriously, it doesn’t change a thing to me.