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today is the fourth of july and I want to see the fireworks like the fireworks in the sandlot or at least a big enough display for me to see when I close my eyes because that sort of thing won’t happen all the time and I want to worry that they’re falling down on me again even though I’m too old for this by now goddamn goddamn I’m too old for this I want to speak out of turn and kiss someone because you’re here and I’m here and we’re seeing the same things the same way and that sort of thing won’t happen all the time because you’re leaving but we can’t talk about that now because there’s still right now and a month from now I’ll be somewhere else from you I want every day to have fireworks but no that’s stupid because then we’d just become immune to this and we can’t become immune to this I have too much time to kill because I’m happy with the results and I don’t need to try so hard anymore and I know that if I let myself coast long enough you’ll let me know when to come back and I will and for right now we’ll just see fireworks