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Since nobody really reads this im just going to type everything.
Lately I have had a really hard time dealing with my parents.
My dad can’t do much because he is having surgery soon and stuff so for the next 4-6 months its gonna be really inconvenient. My mom I feel like makes things up. Like I don’t know. This sounds mean but I just feel like she is being lazy and only does stuff for herself. She spoils my brothers. I feel really out of my family. The other night they were all in the basement watching a movie and didn’t even like notice I wasn’t there. I don’t know. Just feeling weird. Like I don’t care. I didn’t want to watch the movie anyways but I feel like unwanted. I know they love me but all they do is yell at me. Everything is my fault. I feel like it doesnt even matter what i do because it is NEVER NEVER EVER good enough. I feel like i do all the housework and like im always helping and my brothers and parents dont do as much. my mom doesnt even have a job. I dont know i guess im just frustrated.
Dont worry im not depressed. Im just overtired but im happy. I have some pretty sweet freinds and life is good. Like GOd has worked so much in my life recently. ITs so amazing! He is just so alive and stuff and like ive just realized so much and i feel like im maturing in my walk with God. If your reading this and is like "wow this doesnt make sense or wow emma's a loser" i dont really care.
Im sick of being made fun of. I dont care what people think of me.
I hate when i get sad because like its such a waste of time. Like you cant waste your time worying about tomorrow because you never know if there will be a tomorrow. like today could be my last day...why worry.
my cousin was talking to me and i was like why am i not happy all the time? i realized (and she explained) that its not about being happy. Having bad days is a part of life. BUT there is a difference between happiness and joy. So im not in my happiest mood today but im joyful...
anyways..idk what im talking about...i gg make myself dinner hehe
Lately I have had a really hard time dealing with my parents.
My dad can’t do much because he is having surgery soon and stuff so for the next 4-6 months its gonna be really inconvenient. My mom I feel like makes things up. Like I don’t know. This sounds mean but I just feel like she is being lazy and only does stuff for herself. She spoils my brothers. I feel really out of my family. The other night they were all in the basement watching a movie and didn’t even like notice I wasn’t there. I don’t know. Just feeling weird. Like I don’t care. I didn’t want to watch the movie anyways but I feel like unwanted. I know they love me but all they do is yell at me. Everything is my fault. I feel like it doesnt even matter what i do because it is NEVER NEVER EVER good enough. I feel like i do all the housework and like im always helping and my brothers and parents dont do as much. my mom doesnt even have a job. I dont know i guess im just frustrated.
Dont worry im not depressed. Im just overtired but im happy. I have some pretty sweet freinds and life is good. Like GOd has worked so much in my life recently. ITs so amazing! He is just so alive and stuff and like ive just realized so much and i feel like im maturing in my walk with God. If your reading this and is like "wow this doesnt make sense or wow emma's a loser" i dont really care.
Im sick of being made fun of. I dont care what people think of me.
I hate when i get sad because like its such a waste of time. Like you cant waste your time worying about tomorrow because you never know if there will be a tomorrow. like today could be my last day...why worry.
my cousin was talking to me and i was like why am i not happy all the time? i realized (and she explained) that its not about being happy. Having bad days is a part of life. BUT there is a difference between happiness and joy. So im not in my happiest mood today but im joyful...
anyways..idk what im talking about...i gg make myself dinner hehe