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Shit. Shit,  I used to love writing posts. These days it's hard to muster the willpower to put pen to proverbial fucking paper. I'm going to try a mega-update. I'll even bullet this, 'cause I'm considerate like that.

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• I went to Atlantic City in May with some old mates o'mine. I ended making a $250 dollar charitable donation to the state of New Jersey. All in all, it was interesting experience - but not one I would rate highly in my top 5.  It wasn't that I lost money - it was that I felt guilty as shit for losing cash that I considered 'expendable'. A few years ago I was living on couches, foraging for Mac'n Cheese. Has my climb to success prodded me into delusions of avarice? I can think of so many other useful things I could do with that money - if I was going to throw it away so brazenly I should have donated it to a charitable cause. I still feel guilty. I don't think I'll go back.
• My arse still pains me. The only thing keeping me from visiting another doctor is my dignity. Eventually I will reach a threshold of what I can tolerate pain wise. Honestly, I'm more afraid the Doctor won't believe me - the last one couldn't find anything until the surgery, and even then, treated the fissure disdainfully.
  
• Work is boring. I sit in my office, and do very little. I have trouble mustering the willpower to even study. It's a den of lethargy. I need to study for more certifications. The CISSP is critical to me.
• I love my new car still. The downside is I'm putting a lot of miles on it. If current trends continue, I will average about 24k miles a year. A figure I am not comfortable with. This fucker needs to last me a while.
  
• My mother visited for a weekend. It was good to see her, and spend time with her. Her marriage is not faring well. Ahmed is on medication for his Hep C that messes with his head, his emotions. It's taking a toll on her, and the relationship. We all figure she'll move back to Alabama to stay with my grandmother - and at 52, how much moving can you really do? Most of her peers are almost to retirement, and she's got 15 more years to go if she moves back - it's almost the same as starting over. She'll be a proverbial pauper in her wanning years, and that concerns me greatly. I hope I don't make poor choices that land me in a similar boat.