pain pain go away
well i finally like a girl after 17 years and she doesn't like me back... humiliation ensues as i send 15 boo bags each with a line of a sonnet i wrote for her on them. (i had to write a sonnet for lit so i thought i would be nice and write one for her) she was embarrassed and just wants to be friends. i hate my life, etc etc.
so basically the following things bother me but i feel helpless to fix them:
1) my heart still hurts even though it's been over 3 weeks
2) she has no idea how upset i am / she doesn't care
life suxx0rs. everyone tells me that i will get over it so i am still waiting, but my heart isn't a good liar so why even try fooling myself? my senior year so far kinda hurts with all this failure. it makes life less enjoyable :(
so enough of teenage drama/whining...
the navy invited me to join a super-elite nuclear engineering program where i get paid while i learn for free and get free board etc. honor is cool, but so is the freedom of not having to do something for 6 years... college is so much more freeform than that. i would miss my friends at home too much.
solo/ensemble is looking pretty crazy in a cool and... crazy way. i think i am going to do a grade 7 trombone solo. the neat thing about this solo is:
-it's completely in french
-it's completely in treble clef
-the highest note is a c sharp (not too bad for a grade 7)
that's about it. let the sunshine in please...
so basically the following things bother me but i feel helpless to fix them:
1) my heart still hurts even though it's been over 3 weeks
2) she has no idea how upset i am / she doesn't care
life suxx0rs. everyone tells me that i will get over it so i am still waiting, but my heart isn't a good liar so why even try fooling myself? my senior year so far kinda hurts with all this failure. it makes life less enjoyable :(
so enough of teenage drama/whining...
the navy invited me to join a super-elite nuclear engineering program where i get paid while i learn for free and get free board etc. honor is cool, but so is the freedom of not having to do something for 6 years... college is so much more freeform than that. i would miss my friends at home too much.
solo/ensemble is looking pretty crazy in a cool and... crazy way. i think i am going to do a grade 7 trombone solo. the neat thing about this solo is:
-it's completely in french
-it's completely in treble clef
-the highest note is a c sharp (not too bad for a grade 7)
that's about it. let the sunshine in please...