To a world i know i love
It seems and comes to my attention that my life appears as a joke to some people.
That i have never changed, and never will.
It is true that i will always be Theodore Joseph Lyons Jr. I am also very proud of who i am, who i have became, and who i know i am becoming.
We have all had hard choices and times in our past. I know i have, we have also had some of the best times of our lives, and thats one i know more then anything.
people say i dont know what love is, and i dont know emotions. I feel as if i have felt more feeling then anyone else i know. Ive felt the power of love, and the courage it gives us to become more then we once thought we could. I've felt the pain of loosing a best friend without warning or chance to say goodbye. I've felt the wave of relief to have a father back after being gone for almost a decade. I've felt what love feels like for the first time, when you connect with someone on a level different then that of any friend you have ever had. I've felt the loss of that love as well, as consequence of my own doings. Unchangable heartache. I have experienced the recovery power someone new can have with you.
I look at this very simply, and ill spell it out clearly, so it isnt a secret.
I fell in love,
I got scared by that love,
I faced the fear i had in that love,
to come out ready for it,
but i was too late.
I tried to forget,
but nothing ever let me,
I met someone who distracted me.
I rebounded for almost a year,
I came to my senses that i wasnt supposed to be with her,
I left her to follow what i was drawn to,
let go of my past,
for the first time.
I stepped into my future,
and found,
My life.
I start EMT school on April 3rd.
Graduate in December.
this is a huge change, but i am following a dream now.
I want to save lives, like someone did for me.
That i have never changed, and never will.
It is true that i will always be Theodore Joseph Lyons Jr. I am also very proud of who i am, who i have became, and who i know i am becoming.
We have all had hard choices and times in our past. I know i have, we have also had some of the best times of our lives, and thats one i know more then anything.
people say i dont know what love is, and i dont know emotions. I feel as if i have felt more feeling then anyone else i know. Ive felt the power of love, and the courage it gives us to become more then we once thought we could. I've felt the pain of loosing a best friend without warning or chance to say goodbye. I've felt the wave of relief to have a father back after being gone for almost a decade. I've felt what love feels like for the first time, when you connect with someone on a level different then that of any friend you have ever had. I've felt the loss of that love as well, as consequence of my own doings. Unchangable heartache. I have experienced the recovery power someone new can have with you.
I look at this very simply, and ill spell it out clearly, so it isnt a secret.
I fell in love,
I got scared by that love,
I faced the fear i had in that love,
to come out ready for it,
but i was too late.
I tried to forget,
but nothing ever let me,
I met someone who distracted me.
I rebounded for almost a year,
I came to my senses that i wasnt supposed to be with her,
I left her to follow what i was drawn to,
let go of my past,
for the first time.
I stepped into my future,
and found,
My life.
I start EMT school on April 3rd.
Graduate in December.
this is a huge change, but i am following a dream now.
I want to save lives, like someone did for me.