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I want a serious relationship for a while now. And there are, luckily, enough men around for me to choose from. Yet, there have only been two men that I'm interested in until now. The first is Jeroen, who is a third year student Fashion Commerce at campus. And there's Mart, who' studying Economy&Rights in Groningen. I met him in the pub some two weeks ago.
Jeroen is someone who I probably can't trust; he knows how handsome he is, and he can get many women, any age....he's like Alfie or something. So I guess I'm just one of the any women who fell for his charisma. Anyway...he seemed/sometimes still seems interested in me, but I'm not sure if he just wants to fuck me, or if it is really about me as a person. I think the first option is correct. Anyway...he tries to get my attention when we run into each other. It sucks that I see him at least two times a week, because thursday and friday we have almost all of our classes in the rooms next to each other, so you can't avoid seeing each other. Sucks. I'm trying to ignore him all the time, because I don't want to be attracted to him anymore.
Mart is a different story, one who hurt much more. Like I said, I met him in a pub. I had had a few drinks, and so had he, and I was dancing on the stage with my friends. I tried to convince him to come dance with me on the stage. First he said that he wouldn't go on stage, but I wouldn't go off stage. So finally I got him in stage with me. And I just looked at him, he had this broad smile on his face, and I kissed him. It was awesome. It turned into a biiiiiiiiiiiig make-out session,...on stage where the whole pub could see it :P but I didn't really care about that. We also talked a bit, and he asked me to come visit him at town centre (where he would be working for his aunt that monday) next monday, and we swapped cellnumbers. So I went to see him that monday. It was nice to see him again, and we defenitely had a click. He seemed a little nervous though, I noticed his hands were shaking a little. It was a very short conversation though, he kicked me out after about ten minutes, because he really had to work. I understand. He was sorry for it though.
So....after that we talked a lot on msn. And we had the conversation about what we're both looking for. I'm looking for a serious relationship, and he is def. not. He told me that he had had a relationship for three years, that changed him, and because of that relationship, he doesn't want to be in another one right now. He even said that he promised himself only to be in two (maximum) more relationships ever in his life. And that he wants to be single now, and decide what he's going to do when he's 25 (he's 22 at the moment, 23 in january). So......it sucks! Big time! Especially since I was falling in love with him....really falling in love with him. He wants to stay in contact though. I do to....but it's better for me not to meet him again, I guess. I can't cope with seeing him, and feeling my heart explode, and at the same time knowing that I can't be with him. It sucks. Big time. I really really want a boyfriend!!
Adios......Becca
Jeroen is someone who I probably can't trust; he knows how handsome he is, and he can get many women, any age....he's like Alfie or something. So I guess I'm just one of the any women who fell for his charisma. Anyway...he seemed/sometimes still seems interested in me, but I'm not sure if he just wants to fuck me, or if it is really about me as a person. I think the first option is correct. Anyway...he tries to get my attention when we run into each other. It sucks that I see him at least two times a week, because thursday and friday we have almost all of our classes in the rooms next to each other, so you can't avoid seeing each other. Sucks. I'm trying to ignore him all the time, because I don't want to be attracted to him anymore.
Mart is a different story, one who hurt much more. Like I said, I met him in a pub. I had had a few drinks, and so had he, and I was dancing on the stage with my friends. I tried to convince him to come dance with me on the stage. First he said that he wouldn't go on stage, but I wouldn't go off stage. So finally I got him in stage with me. And I just looked at him, he had this broad smile on his face, and I kissed him. It was awesome. It turned into a biiiiiiiiiiiig make-out session,...on stage where the whole pub could see it :P but I didn't really care about that. We also talked a bit, and he asked me to come visit him at town centre (where he would be working for his aunt that monday) next monday, and we swapped cellnumbers. So I went to see him that monday. It was nice to see him again, and we defenitely had a click. He seemed a little nervous though, I noticed his hands were shaking a little. It was a very short conversation though, he kicked me out after about ten minutes, because he really had to work. I understand. He was sorry for it though.
So....after that we talked a lot on msn. And we had the conversation about what we're both looking for. I'm looking for a serious relationship, and he is def. not. He told me that he had had a relationship for three years, that changed him, and because of that relationship, he doesn't want to be in another one right now. He even said that he promised himself only to be in two (maximum) more relationships ever in his life. And that he wants to be single now, and decide what he's going to do when he's 25 (he's 22 at the moment, 23 in january). So......it sucks! Big time! Especially since I was falling in love with him....really falling in love with him. He wants to stay in contact though. I do to....but it's better for me not to meet him again, I guess. I can't cope with seeing him, and feeling my heart explode, and at the same time knowing that I can't be with him. It sucks. Big time. I really really want a boyfriend!!
Adios......Becca