some ponderings as I have for the first time in a long time... some free time
There's some days when I'm so confused, not about anything specifically... just about my place in the community, how people view me, etc... I don't know whether it's just from exhaustion or anything else... it's just something that I was pondering when I was sitting in one of the comfy chairs in front of Jazzman's listening to Army of Anyone on my iPod (an awesome album by the way: Robert and Dean Deleo (formerly of Stone Temple Pilots), Richard Patrick (lead singer in Filter), and Ray Luzier (session drummer who's worked with -of all people- David Lee Roth), eating lunch, and just gazing out across the courtyard. This year's been interesting so far I've grown closer to some people, and more distant from others (not by choice, just differing schedules and lives).. sometimes I wish I can go back to Freshman/Sophomore year and relive the fun/spontaneous times, and not be holed up in my room doing homework as it seems now, perpetually. That's what I miss, the spontenaity of early college life, when one did have free time to just do whatever, and not have 20 meetings, 15 classes, and a job all to balance... all the while keeping in contact with parents, planning for grad school, and planning my future. I guess all I can say is thank god Thanksgiving Break is here... I don't even think I really know how bad my body/mind/soul needs it...
Shalom.
Shalom.