music
how is it that music can alter moods? is it because people hear music and find a way to accumidate it with their lives...or just because it does. people have a facinating way of hearing something and relating it to a problem or situation of their own. when i need to think, ill puton any music and it will SOMEHOW make me relate it to myself.and if i'm at th point of trying to think things out, then it screws me all up. makes me feel something completely different. But if i were trying to think...it's supposed to direct me somewhere, so maybe music helps. life is filled with nick-nack things that make me think. It's all shit.
I dwelled, Bubba was right. extremely right, i still dwell, trying to get out of it. but You just have to kepp thinking back on what makes you dwell. All i see is me doing a horrible thing. i keep saying it. But if whoever is reading this thinks about their best friend and hot it would be to miss them.ruining the relationship you had between each other.... it's pretty bad. as a girl, my best friend happened to be a guy. he knew me best. knew things that not even my closest girl friends' knew. would talk to me all night for hours. always be there to talk, no matter what. but over all of the friendship there was a love in which i was attracted to him. he made me happy. we went through alot of shit together. but iwas stupid and ended up losing it all out of fear. fear that iwould hurt our friendship/relationship if we were to go out and if we broke up. i ended up hurting myself and exspecially him even more. i loved him very much. and in swaying out of the way so i wouldn't hit any bumps, i lost it all. The person i would do anything for and the person that knew me best. People say that you can't lose soemthing that precious in a minute, but oh yes you can. world collapses before you.
I just really miss my friend. Just so happens that i fell in love with him.
You know how hard it is to talk to someone for what seems like forever and then have to see them day after day and know that you can't talk to them anymore?
drama drama drama. just a truck load of shit.
but as they say ...you can't keep what you lost. so thus a good-bye has to be in order.
If there happens to be anyone that knows how to say good-bye to someone please speak up, post a comment. as mucha s he's avoided me lately (who wouldn't) it's just given me a hell whole of time to think of a great way to say good-bye... yet i have no ideas. please give me an idea of some sort.....do you even think i should say anything?
I dwelled, Bubba was right. extremely right, i still dwell, trying to get out of it. but You just have to kepp thinking back on what makes you dwell. All i see is me doing a horrible thing. i keep saying it. But if whoever is reading this thinks about their best friend and hot it would be to miss them.ruining the relationship you had between each other.... it's pretty bad. as a girl, my best friend happened to be a guy. he knew me best. knew things that not even my closest girl friends' knew. would talk to me all night for hours. always be there to talk, no matter what. but over all of the friendship there was a love in which i was attracted to him. he made me happy. we went through alot of shit together. but iwas stupid and ended up losing it all out of fear. fear that iwould hurt our friendship/relationship if we were to go out and if we broke up. i ended up hurting myself and exspecially him even more. i loved him very much. and in swaying out of the way so i wouldn't hit any bumps, i lost it all. The person i would do anything for and the person that knew me best. People say that you can't lose soemthing that precious in a minute, but oh yes you can. world collapses before you.
I just really miss my friend. Just so happens that i fell in love with him.
You know how hard it is to talk to someone for what seems like forever and then have to see them day after day and know that you can't talk to them anymore?
drama drama drama. just a truck load of shit.
but as they say ...you can't keep what you lost. so thus a good-bye has to be in order.
If there happens to be anyone that knows how to say good-bye to someone please speak up, post a comment. as mucha s he's avoided me lately (who wouldn't) it's just given me a hell whole of time to think of a great way to say good-bye... yet i have no ideas. please give me an idea of some sort.....do you even think i should say anything?