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I wish you understood how many mixed feelings I have about us.
And I know its shady of me. But I felt it was shady of you.
And you are being selfish.
But so am I.
I wish you knew how much it hurt me to have you leave me.
I wish you knew how much it hurt me when you went M.I.A.
So dont tell me that I dont call.
Because you dont understand how hard it is for me to even think about calling you.
Because you dont understand how hard it is for me to do what I do with you now.
That's why we dont talk. And thats why we dont see each other.
Because I feel betrayed.
I never meant you harm in moving out here.
And I never mean to be harsh.
But I express my feelings so much more differently than you.
You may cry to him every night.
I let it sit until I cant deal with the drama.
If the drama wasnt there,
We'd be better off.
But thats another imperfection to our friendship.
I cant deal with rumors.
I dont talk about your private life,
about your secrets
I dont even tell John.
And I keep things that dont need to be spread, about anyone, to anyone.
Thats always been a problem for us.
Thats why i distance myself after I open up.
Thats why I didnt want to tell you what was wrong the night I was crying in my room.
The point of the present.
Is that I feel betrayed because my best friend blames her problems on me,
then leaves me with more problems than I can ever explain.
You didnt know what you were about to do, but it was harsh.
It cut deep.
And it was messy.
But you dont understand still.
You think everything should be ok.
And it isnt,
even though I wish it was.
Its a really hard thing to take back,
because it feels like a permanent mark.
So be mad.
Be so dramatic about.
Because you dont get what I feel.
And you dont care because you left that.
Your intentions were selfish.
Not that I dont understand why you left.
But at the same time, I would have NEVER in my entire life done that to you.
Be mad.
I try not to be.
I try to get by with everything I have as a will.
But I cant imagine how someone could easy do that.
And now, Im left with the pieces.
It was one minor favor I asked of you.
Was that too much to ask?
Deeper and Deeper.
And yet, it seems
YOU'RE OBLIVIOUS
And I know its shady of me. But I felt it was shady of you.
And you are being selfish.
But so am I.
I wish you knew how much it hurt me to have you leave me.
I wish you knew how much it hurt me when you went M.I.A.
So dont tell me that I dont call.
Because you dont understand how hard it is for me to even think about calling you.
Because you dont understand how hard it is for me to do what I do with you now.
That's why we dont talk. And thats why we dont see each other.
Because I feel betrayed.
I never meant you harm in moving out here.
And I never mean to be harsh.
But I express my feelings so much more differently than you.
You may cry to him every night.
I let it sit until I cant deal with the drama.
If the drama wasnt there,
We'd be better off.
But thats another imperfection to our friendship.
I cant deal with rumors.
I dont talk about your private life,
about your secrets
I dont even tell John.
And I keep things that dont need to be spread, about anyone, to anyone.
Thats always been a problem for us.
Thats why i distance myself after I open up.
Thats why I didnt want to tell you what was wrong the night I was crying in my room.
The point of the present.
Is that I feel betrayed because my best friend blames her problems on me,
then leaves me with more problems than I can ever explain.
You didnt know what you were about to do, but it was harsh.
It cut deep.
And it was messy.
But you dont understand still.
You think everything should be ok.
And it isnt,
even though I wish it was.
Its a really hard thing to take back,
because it feels like a permanent mark.
So be mad.
Be so dramatic about.
Because you dont get what I feel.
And you dont care because you left that.
Your intentions were selfish.
Not that I dont understand why you left.
But at the same time, I would have NEVER in my entire life done that to you.
Be mad.
I try not to be.
I try to get by with everything I have as a will.
But I cant imagine how someone could easy do that.
And now, Im left with the pieces.
It was one minor favor I asked of you.
Was that too much to ask?
Deeper and Deeper.
And yet, it seems
YOU'RE OBLIVIOUS