DAMNIT
i think that all that matters is family now, like ALL that matters. and the world is nice to be in and i dont even want to think of the world in the ways that i have began to think of them with like education and everything else. the best part is when you grow up , with your family. my dad is my favorite person in the world. and death scares me, i dont know what i would do. i have premonitions sp? and they come true in kind of real ways and its ..i dont know what it is. i want to be unphilosophical, and i think im mastering that. i want to be as clear as possible, and if i cant i just want to sit and tweak for as long as i can. i have a year august 2nd and nobody really cares itslike we all forgot about problems. but i dont even know who 'we all' is anymore. theres nobody left, and i miss the connections with people everywhere. nobody cares anymore, thats when you leave childhood and start shit world. i dont really like world or life i dont remember or know right now i dont want to..thats my goal or what not but still.. i think instead of going onto that world i have found family life again