Emotions... wtf...
I don't completely understand it. I hate someone... I know why, yet I wish not to hate them, nor to like them. Them just saying "hey" to me makes me think the worst thoughts or the way their name sounds when spoken. As I said I know why I hate them but I do not understand why the feeling is still there. I try not to, I try to look beyond the past but st is an extreme emotion I have never felt for anyone. I try to hide it when this being is mentioned and yet I know I some what show my true feelings on the outside. I sometimes see myself doing them in real horror show and not stopping for anyone who plea's for me to do so. Only one person makes me feel this way, and I am so glad for them and myself that I never see them, and hope to never see them again. For this feeling is inevitable and I beleive I will always feel it. Some people will say that it is not this persons fault for what happened, but I know differently. I know how crafty this person thought they were when they denied the accusations made by mysef and another friend of mine. The fact that I saw everything and knew that it was going to happen and I let it happen to prove that i wasn't wrong with my accusations. Though I know that people will never admit that they were wrong, I know I was right, that's all that should matter, right? Maybe writting this is not the best idea, questions will arise, questions that I shall have to answer. But the time this has been on my mind is so great for me, I am quick to forgive, quick to forget, but not for this for some reason.
I think I will try to learn German... It's such a cool sounding language, then i could talk to the exchange students, mainly Eric, I don't talk to the others... I have talked to Kristine a few times... never have talked to Markus(i think that's how it is spelled) though.
Shawnee has started woking at sunday river, on sundays. That means the only days of the week i would get to see her are Friday and Saturday, that makes me a very un-happy child. This week I will most likely only see her on saturday... which sucks a lot. I already miss her, six more days until I see her again... that is far to long for me.
Three Weeks.
I believe it is bed time for me...I am getting up at six thirty to call My Baby before she goes to work. So good night.
I Love you My Shawnee Doll!!!
Forever!!
Muah!
-someday-
I think I will try to learn German... It's such a cool sounding language, then i could talk to the exchange students, mainly Eric, I don't talk to the others... I have talked to Kristine a few times... never have talked to Markus(i think that's how it is spelled) though.
Shawnee has started woking at sunday river, on sundays. That means the only days of the week i would get to see her are Friday and Saturday, that makes me a very un-happy child. This week I will most likely only see her on saturday... which sucks a lot. I already miss her, six more days until I see her again... that is far to long for me.
Three Weeks.
I believe it is bed time for me...I am getting up at six thirty to call My Baby before she goes to work. So good night.
I Love you My Shawnee Doll!!!
Forever!!
Muah!
-someday-