Misery
Why did I have to let you go... why did I have to say this is what I wanted... if I knew this was going to hurt so much I never would have... I couldn't go to school today... in fear that I would breakdown and cry... like I've done all day... I try so hard not to dislike him... but what can I say everytime I think of him I want to scream... I called you this morning because I thought it would help... but after we hung up the tears started again... I don't think I could handle being around both of you... around you all I would want is to wrap my arms around you and bury my face in your neck and cry and tell you how much I love you... and to be around him would just make me want to scream... you told me this happened because you had a dream... how long ago did you have this dream... you told me about April vacation probably two months or more before it happened... which hurts even more when I think about it... cause for all that time you had these feelings... for all that time I thought we were never going to go through this... my life has been shattered into a million peices... now all I can do is try to peice it back together... but it will never be whole again... there will always be that one big peice that got away... I can't write anymore right now... I need to go....